[mixedup_emotions]

I am just so emotionally drained right now. Drained and vulnerable. Things with my husband have been soooooo rough. My emotions are a rollercoaster. And he has been crying, begging me to give him another chance, telling me all the things that trigger emotions that I have been struggling with....

...And I just don't know if I'm up to going to group T where the focus is not on what's outside of the room. But rather, what's inside of the room. I don't know if I can be attentive and focused...

I took the day off from work today, so maybe I'll spend some time dealing with my grief and emotions (but who the heck wants to do that)....so that I can be better prepared during group. Who knows.

This is just too hard. It's too hard to be strong. I have to be strong for myself....for my daughter....and strong enough not to let my emotions run my decisions with my husband. It's just too damn hard.

[_embrace]

((((gentle hugs))) Whatever you decide to do, just make sure to take care of you, and be gentle with yourself. You deserve it.

[mightaswelllive]

It sounds like you'd really benefit from the session - even if it's off-topic group. The group is there to support you, just like you are there to support them - so they may be able to help you indirectly in the area of you separation. Being around people will make you feel better and learning something may also give you a new tool to help process what is happening.

[mixedup_emotions]

Thank you.....

I am hoping to be able to make it to group tonight because I usually enjoy the challenge of gestalt therapy. I guess I just feel as though I may not be as supportive as I'd want to be. One person in group posted on our private blog that she had some news to share. I want to be able to focus on that, but I am too troubled by what's going on in my life. Hopefully, I'll be able to work through these feelings today and be in a better frame of mind tonight.