Trying to decide if I want to go to Group T today....

I am just so emotionally drained right now. Drained and vulnerable. Things with my husband have been soooooo rough. My emotions are a rollercoaster. And he has been crying, begging me to give him another chance, telling me all the things that trigger emotions that I have been struggling with....

...And I just don't know if I'm up to going to group T where the focus is not on what's outside of the room. But rather, what's inside of the room. I don't know if I can be attentive and focused...

I took the day off from work today, so maybe I'll spend some time dealing with my grief and emotions (but who the heck wants to do that)....so that I can be better prepared during group. Who knows.

This is just too hard. It's too hard to be strong. I have to be strong for myself....for my daughter....and strong enough not to let my emotions run my decisions with my husband. It's just too damn hard.

((((gentle hugs))) Whatever you decide to do, just make sure to take care of you, and be gentle with yourself. You deserve it.

It sounds like you'd really benefit from the session - even if it's off-topic group. The group is there to support you, just like you are there to support them - so they may be able to help you indirectly in the area of you separation. Being around people will make you feel better and learning something may also give you a new tool to help process what is happening.

Thank you.....

I am hoping to be able to make it to group tonight because I usually enjoy the challenge of gestalt therapy. I guess I just feel as though I may not be as supportive as I'd want to be. One person in group posted on our private blog that she had some news to share. I want to be able to focus on that, but I am too troubled by what's going on in my life. Hopefully, I'll be able to work through these feelings today and be in a better frame of mind tonight.