[Christina86]

Thankfully NOT my current one. But the one I see on occassion, and the one I like and the counsellor who runs my psychotherapy group with my psychiatrist??

Yeah, she's LEAVING.

And now I want to throw a temper tantrum.

She's leaving since she's roughly retirement age, and with the economy her pension went wayyyyyyyyyyy down and she's cutting her losses and running.

She's leaving in less than a month.

And I am less than amused.

In fact, I'm pretty emo.

Yes, I have abandonment issues. I also have control issues.

I also think she's freaking AWESOME and my university is losing one of its best therapists.

Blargh.

I had a session with her earlier this week, since I couldn't wait until NEXT week to see my regular therapist. Dealing with a lot of stuff recently... including my university chaplain retiring who has been my role model and who is pretty awesome and I've known him for all of my university career.

He's retiring in less than a month TOO.

Sigh. Bad things happen in threes, right??

So who's going to leave now, or what else can go wrong?

:sighs:

Christina, I'm sorry for your loss - I guess that's truly what it is.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((((((( Christina ))))))))))))))))))))

Awwww...(((((((((((((Christina))))))))))))))))))))

That really stinks. I'm sorry.

[Hunny]

Christiana,

A temper tantrum is definately in order. We support you in it. All the loss emotions for that matter ...go for it, (of course in a safe way to you and others).

Ugh, this is very weighty...we stand with the others to support you.

H

[Kiya]

That totally bites!!!! I'd be tantruming too. =( Don't ask about the third.... maybe you'll get lucky =( I wonder if your T will be doing any on the side, from a home office? Might be worth checking.

My group t left too. SUCKS. The replacements are terrible. waaah crying for you.

[Christina86]

She's quitting. Completely. Totally. Permanently. And I'm stupdefied.

Mostly because I didn't see this coming, and there wasn't a forewarning.

Oh, and better yet... she told the entire group of people (our psychotherapy group) before I had arrived, so she repeated herself at the end of the meeting.

And while she's saying this and I'm trying not to cry --> My FREAKING PSYCHIATRIST IS STARING AT ME. Because he KNEW it would upset me.

grrr. And he said absolutely nothing and I could have screamed.

Erm, Christina is an angry person sometimes.

Anyways. Sigh. If my now current therapist says something like "sorry, I can't see you anymore and you've got to deal with stuff yourself" ...

Well, I'll just curl up in a ball and die. Stupid worst case scenarios always run through my head and this was actually one I DIDNT FREAKING IMAGINE.

Dontcha hate that?? You worry about things, see the worst case scenario and worry about it - and it doesn't happen. But the minute you think everything is fine and great, something goes wrong that you hadn't even expected and you didn't plan the worst case scenario for it because you DIDNT THINK IT WOULD HAPPEN.

I feel like the wool has been pulled over my eyes. Or the rug from under my feet... erm, wheelchair.

Sigh. And I cannot believe she wouldn't tell me about this when I had an appt with her on Tuesday, HONESTLY!!

She even said that one of these next sessions I could play with this sandbox thing she has... some sort of drama? It sounded like fun. I miss being a kid and getting my hands dirty... sigh. Weird.

blah. I'm just going to ignore her now and pretend this doesnt bug me and I wont say a word to her about how much it bugs me. Thats what I do when this happens. I clam up and shut up and hide and put on a happy face.

But theres gonna be a lot of ignoring going on. And I feel justified in doing it even though its childish and stupid and immature and mean and rude.

blah. I don't feel 22 years old right now. Not at all. *grr*

[Kiya]

I do that too - plan all the poss worst case things that could happen. And if I don't plan it, it HAPPENS. but if I do plan it, i don't need to worry about it happening. Messed up. truly.
Sitting with you (((((((((((((((((((Christina))))))))))))))))))))))))