[RAMY]

My problem seems to be very complicated and in the same time , i can't go to a psychologist for social reasons ... Please have patience to read the entire message and give your answer as i need your help more than you can imagine .

My name is Ramy and i am 24 years old, i live in cairo - Egypt ... I have a bachelor degree in engineering ... I spent a vey very beautiful childhood period but by the beginig of teen's age my crisises began this was at age of 14 exactly ... I began to feel depression and fear from future while missing the beautiful past... from this time , i began to find myself thinking for a long times to a degree that i was not studying but thinking in every thing ... This was not normal at all as i discovored later on that those thoughts where trials to make my self convinced with things in which i am already convinced and sometimes , i was trying to make myself desiring to make things that i am already desiring .
ex:
I found myself trying to make myself desiring to study using some other trials to convince myself about advantages of studying well ... This was horrible .
The problem is that although i dicovered all of this , sometimes i enter similar crisises while i can't stop it .. thinking thinking thinking even at sleep time , i can't sleep ... i weep every day ... i feel i lost my principals and beliefs .

Please note that although these crisises are frequent but between them i feel almost normal and happy ... I want to be normal like others and i want to return as when i was a child .. i was happy and taking every thing simply with no fear from future .

Pleae doctor take care of my problem and help me as much as you can ... Please tell me why this happens and if there is a psychological desease with these symptoms as i am afraid that my case is so strange that even psychology don't know it... I suffer a lot from this type of thinking which i can't stop ... i feel sometimes that i deal with myself as if i am another one trying to make myself convinced with determined things or desiring determined things .
please tell me :
1-Is there any desease with these symptoms exactly and what is its name ?
2-How while i know all of this i still enter these crisises ?
3-Is there ant treatement ... Please tell me about
it ?

Note : Between crisises , I am almost normal but when crisis begins ... i feel failure and depression and i weep a lot while tired from thinking .

Thanks for answering soon

[ErinBear]

Hi Ramy,

I'm not a doctor, and I can't provide you with a diagnosis. I understand that you may not be able to see a psychologist, and I know that can be a very difficult thing to do. Have you thought about seeing a regular doctor for a checkup? I don't know how things work in Egypt, but here in the United States, our doctors can also help with depression and insomnia....if you have a physician you see regularly, they may be able to help you figure out what is happening, and provide treatment. For many people, it's easier to begin asking these questions with a doctor they know. This may be a place to start, especially if you're not able to see a psychologist.

I hope this helps, and things get better for you....please take care!

Take care,
ErinBear

[JustBen]

I can understand your frustration, RAMY, and I can tell you're suffering a lot. PsychCentral is a self-help community, though, and not a place where professionals diagnose or treat people. I hope you can stick around and talk more--it really does help most people. In the meantime, I agree with Erin, can you talk to a doctor?

[allthegirls6]

Ramy, can you go to a doctor? Its just that you need a professional to help you find out whats wrong. Im sure they could help.

Hope you stick around

atg

[Rapunzel]

Hello Ramy, and welcome to Psych Central. I am glad you found us. I'm wondering if you could possibly be someone I know. I once supervised an exchange student from Cairo whose name was Ramy, and you would be about the right age. I know that Cairo is a huge city, so the chances must be slim that you are my student, but either way I am very happy to hear from you. Please write to me if you want to, okay?

The others are right about not being able to diagnose you here. This is a support group, and it isn't designed to give professional services like assessment or treatment. You can learn a lot from being here though. Maybe when you read about other people's experiences you will find something that sounds like what you are going through, and maybe you will get some ideas that work for you.

Even if someone here were qualified to diagnose you, we would need more information and would need to ask more questions. It sounds like sometimes you are depressed, but not all the time. There are mood disorders that come in cycles. You are also saying that you struggle with controlling your thoughts, trying to motivate yourself, and also to convince yourself of what you say you know you want. Maybe part of you wants it but another part doesn't. You are the only one who can tell which part is right, or maybe it's not one or the other and you need to work out a compromise.

There are medications to control depression or stabalize your mood. Could you talk to a doctor about what might help you? If your thinking is disorganized or it is hard to stay on task, or you focus so much on one thing that you don't get around to other things, there are medications for those problems too. I think that medications just make you feel better temporarily and don't fix anything though, because they don't teach you to think differently. So I think it is important to get treatment from a psychologist or counselor or therapist too. If you can't go to one in person, would working with a counselor online be something you could try?

Ramy, I do hope that you will stay around and that you find some help here. Maybe we will have more or better ideas for helping you or telling you something you can try after we get to know you better.

Best of luck!
Rap/Wendy

[Rhapsody]

Welcome and ((((((( HUGS ))))))) Ramy,

I think what you are going thru is very normal, for we as humans always like to relive that which brought us happiness and joy through out our life.... when we loose some thing we will try to find the object lost, or replace it (and) that is what you are probably doing here - a form of REPLACING.

Please do as the others have suggested and see a doctor (a MD will do) for some medicine and for the Dx that you seek.... we are all here for YOU and our arms, heart and ears are always open to the wounded heart.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Hopefull]

I hope you find some professional help because it sounds like your distress is great.
As for thinking and thinking, I call that zoning. My T tries to say its okey. But, it annoys me because I need to get my but off the couch/floor/bed and get some things done. I waste too much time just thinking about things. I would suspect it is depression like you said because depression has a lack of motivation as part of it. I sometimes lack the motivation to do much except sit around and think. It might help to make note of what you think about and share it with us or someone. We might could help some.
But, I hope you find a way to get help where you are from a psychologist/counsellor/medical doctor.

[unr3achable1tch]

I'm not sure...but you might have an anxiety disorder mixed with something else...maybe procrastination? I'm not a doctor so I don't know. But I understand how you feel. I'm from Egypt, too. But don't be ashamed to go to a therapist, he/she can really help you and thats what they are there for .

Are you trying to say that you constantly try to convince yourself to enjoy/desire the things you must do? Basically..."Love what you do" not "Do what you love" ?