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Hey kiya, anything I can do to help?
Colleen
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(((((Kiya)))))
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(((all)))
really hard session with t last night. *curls up under blankie and brolly* still trying to process everything. ![]()
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ((((((((((((((((sweet kiya)))))))))))))))))) PM box is open. *holding your hand* |
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((((all)))))
well... all that stuff i have been processing about my dr's and attachment.... I took it all in last night - and all everyone's posted advice (minus names). I knew she'd hit me with my email where I let slip i was holding back. Prior to that we'd gotten onto the topic of one of the abusive events.... and i told her, in comparing that to this attachment thing, I'd rather talk about the abuse, it's easier. she was shocked. It was totally hard. i sobbed thru most of it. she even kept me an extra 45 min @_@ because i was such a wreck. But it is out, t said it was a really good session and she is glad we discussed all of it. But today i feel like I've been run over with a paving truck. Totally flattened, drained, and... somehow... greiving i guess. We determined that there was no need for her to tell any of it to the other dr (the DO) because it would not serve me or her. And T confirmed that she still saw me and her in the same loving light as always. But it was clear that DO is not the right dr for me. A. is financial (which I had never known and wish she'd of just TOLD me back in Nov) and B. is energetically. I need stability from my dr's in their personalities (which i have in 2 of them) because I am still too much of a chamelion to work with people who switch from friend to t to professional dr back to friend all in one apointment. THe part that still concerns me is that T was very explicit in making sure that she goes the extra mile for me and will see me even when she won't see others because she knows how much i need it. that felt really uncomfortable. My conscious self is very careful of other's needs and lives. My unconscious self still feels that my needs are damned important and should be met!!! It is a difficult contradiction to live with. Made more uncomfortable by the fact that someone so important to me can see it. =(
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Talking about the therapeutic connection is soooo difficult.
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((((((((kiya))))))))
i'm sorry you had such a rough session. take gentle care. ![]() |
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(((((KIYA)))))
Kiya, I was confused about what you talked about with your T--was it attachment or abuse? In either case, it sounds hard but like something you needed to get out. ![]() Quote:
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![]() *breathe kiya* Ahem. Anyway, I am exchanging this new bodywork stuff in instead. It costs nearly the same as my 75% off, the woman purposely works with those abused to assist in healing, and she's not going to run me off. I also don't sense any of the same type of attachment issues in the future. So, all's well that end's well... it was just VERY emotional. Quote:
So.... i dunno.... i feel a lot of things; damaged goods, a burden to her, like i'm taxing her. I know she has explained that she does this because she wants to and because it is her decision. It just feels uncomfortable. AND she sees me for free (has been for 13 months) because i can't even afford the weekly $36 for those with limited income. I know - i need to shut up and stop complaining. T also mentioned how she knows that often it is said that multiples need to be worked with daily, and how she just can't do it. I tried to scruntch my face up to say "OMG can you imagine how awful that would be, good thing I'd never ever think to even suggest it, huh?!" ![]() life sure can get complicated. ![]() I spent a lot of time in bed today trying to just NOT think. it just made me restless. ![]() anyway... thanks for reading. The responses help me to feel connected and less crazy.
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Now I am still avoiding the DO - in my dreams! I've have two (one just now during a nap) where I see DO and T and T seems not to see me, DO looks frosty eyes at me, and I scurry away and try to not run into her again. This morning's dream T will have a field day with. I was stuck in the clinic's bathroom with an over filling tolit (the part AFTER it flushes and is refilling) that flooded the room right up to the tip of my nose. When i got out, T was nowhere to be found, my mom was in the kitching chirping non-sensicles at me, and the DO was in the room where I had left my bag and I refused to go in there until she left.
Brain - what are you doing to me?!
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