[emilyjeanne]

This will probably be redundant with other posts. But my feelings are particularly bothering me tonight.

It has been 26 months since I started with T. Looking back on it now, I was very distant and didn't care about going to therapy.

Now I feel like I can't live without it. T is the only one of my T's whom I trust and know that I won't be hurt. There is comfort in knowing that. I have comfort in knowing that I can tell her anything and it will be ok.

However, August is coming and she will be going away for two weeks. Last year wasn't bad. I had a substitute T and I wasn't attached. But I feel attached and hate that she is going away. I guess this is normal. but I HATE it.

[Christina86]

(((((((((((((emilyjeanne)))))))))))))))))

Understood completely. I hate feeling dependent on T so I fight it tooth and nail sometimes...

[sw628]

((emilyjeanne)))
I feel like we have the same T . My T is going away for 2 weeks in August as well. I've only seen her for about 11 months though. I'm getting pretty attached and I can't say that I absolutely love it because it's starting to hurt when she leaves. I have huge abandonment issues... yuck. Luckily T always bring me a souvenir from wherever she travels. I was also thinking that being a T has it's perks. I don't know too many people that take 2-3 week vacations at a time lol

[Amazonmom]

I love being attached to my T, and I hate being attached to my T. I like my T more than I like my own mother right now....sometimes I wish T had been my mother. (only when my own mom REALLY pisses me off)

[Rmdctc]

Its ok to feel attached. I know its hard but before you know it the two weeks will be over and your T will be back.

[Melbadaze]

This is so difficult. I think with time it becomes managable. I was only thinkingn about this last night as next week is my last session for 4 weeks, and trying to remember how sad I get during the break, but this time, theres something else there, theres more closeness with T, I think this yr our 6th yr together, we've been the most relaxed with each other, or perhaps I've been more relaxed, I'm sure T doesnt need time to feel relaxed LOL!, but this being closer actually helps with the distance of the break, theres a whole lot more of the relationship to hold onto, only time can give you that, so dont be to hard on yourself or think it to imposible.

[emilyjeanne]

Originally Posted by sw628

((emilyjeanne)))
I feel like we have the same T . My T is going away for 2 weeks in August as well. I've only seen her for about 11 months though. I'm getting pretty attached and I can't say that I absolutely love it because it's starting to hurt when she leaves. I have huge abandonment issues... yuck. Luckily T always bring me a souvenir from wherever she travels. I was also thinking that being a T has it's perks. I don't know too many people that take 2-3 week vacations at a time lol

I'm glad I'm not alone!!!!! No more vacations!!!

[emilyjeanne]

Originally Posted by Melbadaze

This is so difficult. I think with time it becomes managable. I was only thinkingn about this last night as next week is my last session for 4 weeks, and trying to remember how sad I get during the break, but this time, theres something else there, theres more closeness with T, I think this yr our 6th yr together, we've been the most relaxed with each other, or perhaps I've been more relaxed, I'm sure T doesnt need time to feel relaxed LOL!, but this being closer actually helps with the distance of the break, theres a whole lot more of the relationship to hold onto, only time can give you that, so dont be to hard on yourself or think it to imposible.

I can't even imagine a 4 week vacation!!!! My T always gives me plenty of notice of her vacation weeks. Maybe I will get on the ball and go on a cruise or something when she is away.