[googley]

All of my being overwhelmed came pouring out.
(well I do kind-of know but don't want to admit it)
I feel like I'm the worst client ever. And I only have two weeks left before I move. I wanted to be able to show that I was competent and have her remember me that way instead of have her remember me breaking down and not being able to hold it together.

Originally Posted by googley

All of my being overwhelmed came pouring out.
(well I do kind-of know but don't want to admit it)
I feel like I'm the worst client ever. And I only have two weeks left before I move. I wanted to be able to show that I was competent and have her remember me that way instead of have her remember me breaking down and not being able to hold it together.

You did what you needed to do to let your feelings out, don't be ashamed of that! I bet your T would rather see the real you over some projection of who you want her to see. This is a good thing, even though it may not feel like it to you right now.

Originally Posted by googley

I wanted to be able to show that I was competent and have her remember me that way instead of have her remember me breaking down and not being able to hold it together.

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Your T will remember ALL of the good work you did together, not just the last few sessions. Let yourself feel how you feel, and let T help you work through it.

[googley]

Part of it is that it is just so painful. I didn't really realize how attached I had gotten to my T. Now it feels like my heart is getting ripped apart. I'm in the process of writing her a letter that I think I'm going to give her the next time I see her. Before I used to hardly ever cry in session and now it seems like I do it the whole time. I feel like a part of my life will be missing. I don't think I've ever felt this strongly when I have finished with other Ts. Being that I have been able in the past to push down all my feelings, it appears that I had also been pushing down my feelings around the importance of T to me. I didn't want to feel dependent on it, but it was the one thing that I knew I could look forward to each week. Now I am sad that it is going away. What is the saying? You don't really know how important something is until it is taken away?

[Melbadaze]

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[rainbow8]

googley: All you can do is be yourself, and what you are is sad because you are leaving your T. It's totally okay and normal to cry and feel sad.

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It sounds so incredibly painful. I'm sorry

[SpottedOwl]

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I didn't want to feel dependent on it, but it was the one thing that I knew I could look forward to each week. Now I am sad that it is going away. What is the saying? You don't really know how important something is until it is taken away?

It is saying that you have done real healing work with T. It is saying you've made such progress that now you are able to express your emotions.

I shudder to think about how hard it would be to lose my T, but I know I would be an emotional wreck. Crying over losing a healing relationship in your life *IS* a sign of amazing growth, and I know your T will remember you, tears and all, in a very positive light.

[lindee]

[MissCharlotte]

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Maybe it's nice that she will remember you as a real person who wasn't afraid to show her emotions.

Best of luck to you.

Crying is a sign of strength, weakness is holding it all in and afraid to show your feelings.