[BlueMoon6]

I called her and left a message on her machine. It was one of these "It is so nice to hear your voice and can you call me back" type of things. Then I talked to the secretatry after I called back to ask if she gets her msgs through them or from the machine. I was told the the sectretary was instructed to check the machine and she will get the machine msg from the secretary. Great. The message is now for the secretary

I havent spoken to my t yet and I hope she gets the msg soon. I am not even sure what to say b/c there is so much to say. I just want her to come back but I wont be saying that. Im afraid I wont know what to say....if I said that to her I think it would be OK. I am hoping she understands how difficult this is for me.

I am going on vacation for 3 days and we are leaving tomorrow and I have this weird, kind of scared feeling (not that it isnt scary taking my kids on vacation...sometimes its like loading a bunch of little monkeys in the car and hoping for the best) that I am going far from my t. I know she is going away for a few days, too and I dont know where she will be but I just feel weirdly like I would prefer to stay home.
We will be at the beach and it is my favorite place in the world. I feel much more centered and peaceful at the ocean and it will be a good opportunity to connect with my kids/husband.

And then when we get back it will just be a matter of time before t comes back.

(((((clk)))))

Good for you for knowing that you need to talk to T before you leave town for a few days! That is disappointing that the message will only be heard by the secretary, but at least your T will get the message through the secretary.

I hope you hear back from T soon, and I hope you have a wonderful few days away at the beach with your family!

Originally Posted by clk6

We will be at the beach and it is my favorite place in the world. I feel much more centered and peaceful at the ocean and it will be a good opportunity to connect with my kids/husband.

I hope that you are able to relax and just let everything go for a few days. I was able to do that on my vacation, and it was so nice to have a break.

[BlueMoon6]

Of course its making me nuts that she hasnt called back. And I really DO hope the secretaries arent going to erase her messages.

And What? She isnt hanging by her phone looking for messages from me during her vacation? What kind of a t is she? Where is that call back?

[~EnlightenMe~]

Great. The message is now for the secretary

Ugh! I always feel stupid calling and leaving a message to have T call me back. It's like, I hate being so attached to him, I'd rather no one else know!

I havent spoken to my t yet and I hope she gets the msg soon. I am not even sure what to say b/c there is so much to say. I just want her to come back but I wont be saying that. Im afraid I wont know what to say....if I said that to her I think it would be OK. I am hoping she understands how difficult this is for me.

I hear ya'! It usually helps if I write down what I want to say, but oddly, I have a lot of difficulty doing that. It's kind of like I'm sabatoging myself so I won't remember everything I wanted to tell T so then I'll be miserable.

I know she is going away for a few days, too and I dont know where she will be

I always feel better if I can somehow picture or imagine where on the globe he will be. When all else fails, make it up on your own - I did. Mine went to the Swiss Alps. It's not the best-case scenario, but you gotta do what you've gotta do!

I feel much more centered and peaceful at the ocean and it will be a good opportunity to connect with my kids/husband.

So do I!!!!!!!!!! I hope you have a really peaceful trip=)

And What? She isnt hanging by her phone looking for messages from me during her vacation? What kind of a t is she? Where is that call back?

Unbelievable, just unbelievable! What is the world coming to these days? It's disgraceful. =) (((((CLK6)))))) Don't you hate when you are in what feels like inescapable pain and the one who can soothe you doesn't put it as a first priority? When the one who you need can provide comfort and safety as well as elicit ungodly pain and leave you with it? I get that we need to learn to soothe ourselves, but that doesn't happen overnight.

I see T today in an hour for the first time since his trip to the Alps and our rupturous session. I don't really want to go, but I know he's been in pain from being away from me so long. My Needy T. Yours had better call you!!!!!!!!!!