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Sep 12, 2009, 08:44 PM

((((((((hanging on))))))))

sorry i'm so late to your thread--threads seem to be moving rather fast lately. you are always doing such great work in therapy. you have an amazing ability to push thru the fear. how do you do it girl? i'm so glad t gave you that big hug and was so supportive. i also think like the suggestion of asking her to come to your graduation if that's something you'd like. will your siblings be there for you? i'm sure we will all be there in spirit--we'll be the pc mob in the back.

Sep 12, 2009, 08:47 PM

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Originally Posted by hangingon

Dreamseeker,
It's interesting how our minds block out certain things. I believe it's because we dissociate as they are happening so as not to remember what was going on because it was too intense for us. It's a defense mechanism but it works.

I want to discuss this with my T, because I've started noticing that I've been dissociating in other ways (feel like I'm moving in slow-motion after a hard session), but I never knew that was considered dissociation. But yes, I think that must be it - I've always had a very active imagination, I think dissociating comes very easily to me as a defense mechanism. And in my last session with T, I started to feel lightheaded and had to make myself really focus on being present.

However, I am finding that mine are not working so well lately. I have been having the hardest time sleeping, either it takes me hours to fall asleep, or I will fall asleep but can't stay asleep. I have no had issues with sleeping in a long time. I attribute some of this to the deeper work I am starting to do in therapy. Yet, I am in my last semester of college and there is alot of stress involved with that as well. Things like this can be very frustrating.
I am also feeling things a lot more lately, more overwhelmed. I am not comfortable with that either. Ah, all these things to work through.

hangingon

I hope your sleeping improves, that is the worst! It's tough that the deeper work affects us so much that we feel overwhelmed and then to be tired on top of that - it's a lot to handle. Maybe talk to T about feeling overwhelmed?

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Something my T tells me alot is that she wants me to have total control over what I want to talk about. That I don't have to tell her everything to heal. She also encourages me to tell her if I don't want to talk about something, or if we are talking about something and it gets to overwhelming, she wants me to tell her when I need to stop. She doesn't push it. From the very beginning she encouraged that control. She knew I needed that.

My T didn't come right out and say it at first, but she's always let me start a session and then followed my lead with discussions. After one very hard session, T wanted to talk more about something I'd revealed, but she told me that it was perfectly okay if I didn't want to discuss it - and I told her I couldn't, not then. She waited for me to bring it up again at another session. Just this past week, we started to get into something heavy at the very end (and this was after an already emotionally intense session) - I told her that I just couldn't go there, it was too much, and I didn't want to bring all that up at the end of the session, either. T just let it go, and she won't bring it up again until I do - I love that about her!

hangingon · Sep 12, 2009, 08:49 PM

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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6

(((((Hangingon))))) It is so difficult. I think the things we work on in therapy have this way of affecting everything else all week long. Please be gentle with yourself. Can your t help you with the things that gbo on after your session during the week?
It is a BIG deal to be graduating form college! It is truly and amazing.Do you know where you will work? Have you thought about it?
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Bluemoon,
My T has told me that I can call her if I need to, I just don't have the nerve to do that just yet. I can also email her as well. This is actually the first week that I had not emailed her after session. I think she recognized I was a bit overwhelmed last week. I had told her that I was thinking of perhaps asking my doctor about taking something that may help. She actually encouraged me to see about getting something to help me sleep at night. Said I really shouldn't try to be a superhero.

I have never taken meds before so I am a bit worried about trying something. I was given meds for leg pain and had a really bad reaction, so they gave me a new one and I had a bad reaction to that as well. Since my body is so meds, I am not sure I want to deal with that but I may try, I need my sleep bad.

When I finish school, I will begin looking for a job right away. I may continue my studies to further the degree but I will wait until I am adjusted in a new job before trying to do that.

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