welp

I start EMDR next week. T and i set that up tonight. She talked about it and said I am always in crisis. I said, I know - let's do it. Bring it on. T just looked at me surprised... one eyebrow raised. and said this is not the week to start something new. So we talked more about the process and ended with "We'll start it next week unless something else comes up that needs our attention, or more crisis.

thats great, i'v heard that it works really well. Hope it goes good. I like how u said bring it on! and T reaction sounds hilarious.

You are very brave Kiya!
I always wanted to try EMDR with my last T, but she said I was never stable enough.
I hope you find it very helpful - Let us know how it goes!

Kiya, best of luck to you! I hope you find that EMDR is very helpful to you. My advice: don't go in with any expectations, just go with the process and see where it takes you.

Heh it was funny i mean seriously, if she's waiting for when i'm never in crisis (by HER standards), we'll never do EMDR. So, I'm for 'let's shove everything out of the way, and do it'!
Ironically, next week marks 2 years of being with T. Maybe I should bring a card

"Dear T,
Yay, we're finally starting "real" therapy Hope it doesn't scare the **** outta me
Sincerely, Kiya.
PS Happy 2 year T anniversary with me LOL"

Thanks - yes, good advice. I think that is where I am at too. And T is being very careful with me, starting slow. Showed me the "paddles" that pulse like a month or two ago, held them herself, didn't try to make me hold them (knowing i'd bolt). T says the idea is to start small and work up to the big stuff.