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Blue.. ![]() I guess it is all about practice. The practice is hard but you're right.. the fact that I'm okay in my working environment does give me a glimmer of hope, with practice I'll be more comfortable. I was actually not a shy kid.. I was very outgoing until some bad things happened, then I withdrew and never came out. Maybe also that shows me that my "true" personality is not this shy persona.. that healing will come when I break out of my shell. I'm glad to hear your 13 yo is doing so well, with practice. ![]()
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I haven't read all the posts here, but it seems like there are TWO issues, self esteem and social anxiety. I am sure they are related somewhat but most people I know, even T's admit they feel uncomfortable a bit before social engagements. Even people who don't have low self esteem, many still like a little something to relax when in social situations. and yes wine helps and other people take other things.
I see nothing wrong with having a drink of wine to relax if it helps. As far as the self esteem thing, that is something that therapy is good for. Last edited by Anonymous273; Dec 05, 2009 at 07:06 PM. |
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I have not read through this entire thread, but have been experiencing recently what happens now that I've begun to let go of my feelings of low self-worth. It's more challenging than just knowing all that stuff you thought about yourself was just plain wrong. When you have to actually live it, accept it, allow it...it can be excruciatingly painful. I'm trying to grow into my new skin, but have to fight myself from wanting to latch onto my old comfort zone. Let go of the old painful thoughts and memories and allow the new, true ones in its place. Not easy!
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opps, I am sorry I meant to have said TWO issues, not NO issues. That was a typoo I am going to fix now.
My brain isn't working the greatest right now, I am sorry if anyone got offended by that, because that is certainly not what I meant to type. ![]() |
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I missed typed what I meant earlier. ![]() Then my first T said something early on therapy that we all experience some anxiety when we are first around people. He even took beta blockers to deal with his anxiety and he deals with people all the time, but mostly one on one. A party is much different. So eventually, I don't know how it worked, but I just imagined everyone else in the room feeling as dumb and awkward as me and bam! All of sudden I am the talker of the century and if I mess up, I just laugh at myself in front of people. It seems when I relax, others around me do too. We are all feeling nervous. But gosh before that happened, I just want to hide with shame of embarrassment. So if you see a crazy nut at a holiday party or something this year, ask them if they are exotic flower, they just might be. lol If not, you can just laugh it off because most people don't really perceives us as bad as we perceive ourselves in those situations. Last edited by Anonymous273; Dec 05, 2009 at 09:26 PM. |
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I see what you meant! I think we might have the same T lol. Mine also says he is nervous socially but okay one-on-one. I guess it's the same as me--I'm terribly shy, but in my role as a teacher? Downright flamboyant. It's being able to put on that hat, I guess.
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![]() Deli- I realized also, it is more women I dont know well as opposed to women who are close to me. With men, I dont feel it as much. I feel more...something....not sure what. Hmmmm.. I understand what you mean about control. Maybe the drink allows me to let go of the control and relax about it. I dont mind being a tipsy Moon ![]() Its nice you'll be traveling with old friends ![]() ![]() Thanks, Jexa- It is VERY interesting that you werent a shy kid. Id imagine that you probably arent terribly shy, then. Im so sorry these things happened to you, and the way you feel about yourself from that. Im so sorry. I can so understand that. There are incidences in my life that cause me to feel that same kind of self-hate today, I imagine as I integrate them into my story, without judgement, I'll feel better about myself. But that's a huge job and will take a long time. Probably just acknowlefdging it is a step toward healing and more self-love. ![]() Brightheart- I think what you said about growing into new skin, allowing yourself to be there withour lapsing into the old comfort zone is very profound. I think a huge part of it is the I am COMFORTABLE not liking myself. Self-love feels, selfish, indulgent, vain, etc. I am actually more comnfortable in the unworthy place. Wow! Amazing insight Brightheart ![]() Skeksi- When I read this my heart dropped. I had forgotten that as a teen, Id SI after social situations. What a self-loathing place to be in. I remember feeling so trapped with no way out. I wanted to be social, I liked people and friends, but felt too self-hating and unable to go after what I needed/wanted. It all triggered larger issues of how different I imagined I was from everyone around me. Sigh..... Exotic- LOL! Im so late to my own thread that I didnt get to see the typo to be offended. ![]() |
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HI Bluemoon
Well you are one up on me! I can't dance at all in public, to me that is 100X worse than talking to people. ![]() I do love the image off you dancing you butt off! ![]() I am reminded of the movie My Best Friends Wedding where this girlfriend of this guy sings karaoke and is so dreadfully bad that she is actually cute because you just goes for it. Now that is the confidence I wish I had, but then again it maybe is only in movies. ![]() I am glad you had a great time! |
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Too funny! After everything Im posting Im talking about dancing my butt off. I think I do have confidence, but I dont. I dont even know what I mean or how to describe it. I chat pretty freely, I go dance and I talk to people I dont know. At one point, my husband didnt want to dance and I STILL wanted to, so I said to him, "If you dont want to dance how about if I ask X (my husband's friend) to dance, you're not going to be jealous, are you?" LOL! So, he waved his hand at me and said, "Go ahead!" And I lef thim with the kiddies....I was on a roll!
What does it all mean? What I posted about difficulties with self-worth are all true. And the subtle self-hate thing. Maybe its sometimes true? maybe its a matter of degree? Maybe its who I am at the moment. This may be frighteningly true, it feels as if there are parts of me that are so dramatically different from each other...not in a dissociated way, but maybe it has some sort of relation to parts and dissociation...if that makes any sense....it makes some slight sense to me, but Im not completely sure what I mean. |
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I'd expect that if you just let yourself be and just watch, you'll eventually come up with lots of good answers of your own. ![]() |
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