[gravyyy]

So I have an appt tomorow morning with some counselor here in town. Anyone who read my last post (in BP forrum actually so probably not many read it) knows that my appt this past Thursday with a new pdoc was dreadful (called me a liar, basically kicked me out of the office.... i didn't lie and she's stupid). I am now scared to death of this appt tomorrow. The good thing is that it's in the early morning so I won't have much time to think about it but I am having such bad stomach cramps right now from my nerves and I'm so nauseous.

To make matter worse, my close friend from college (we graduated in the same nursing class) has dealings with this lady I'm seeing in the morning and he says she's a real B**** and he thinks our personalities are going to clash. Great! And he knows me really well and, plus he a phenomenal psych nurse so I believe him... we'll see.

I'm thinking of just going in tomorrow morning and being like, "look, I can't take another session like this past Thursday where you people ask me a bunch of questions that leave me exposed and vulnerable and then stomp all over what I say and call me a liar and tell me that you can't help me." I just want her to be up front. Maybe I'll just ask from the start if there's any types of clients they don't work with and if I fall into that category then I will just leave.

ANyway... sorry for the long post... I posted this in the bipolar forum but then thought it's about T so it might better fit here but then I didn't know how to move it so I guess I thought it was best to repost it here... not sure what the protocol is for that...I just needed to be able to post and clear my head a bit... between the stomach cramps and diarrhea and nausea and the raging headache I'm like ready to scream! I'm so scared. Please, please, please even if you don't reply to this send me one quick sentiment of good luck in your mind for tomorrow morning. Thanks!!!!

Sometimes the therapist is the wrong one for the client. If therapy is not working, find a different therapist. Good luck.

[jexa]

Oh no, that sucks that your friend said that!! Well, good luck tomorrow -- but if this one doesn't seem right, walk out with your head held high and look elsewhere!

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I think it would be totally okay to go and tell T that you had a bad experience with Pdoc on Thursday, and that you're feeling nervous about opening up again. Hopefully your nurse friend was wrong....but if she is not a good match for you, then move on, knowing that YOU are not the problem.

Sending SO many good luck wishes your way. Please let us know how it goes

[WePow]

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[gravyyy]

Thank you all so much for your thoughts and comments... Just got back from the new T. She's nice enough. I didn't really feel any connect with her but at the same time we definitely didn't have any personality conflict. I told he up front about my experience with that pdoc and she was very understanding and saw several times where she asked me questions that I felt uncomfortable and she just said, relax and tell me... you're not going to get in trouble. I have an appt with her again at the end of next week which is fine. I will keep seeing her for a a few sessions and go from there I suppose. I see the new pdoc in 3 weeks so we'll see. My old T is supposed to call me in about an hour and that'll probably be the last time I talk to her then since I have a new T for now. Kinda dreading talking to old T because I like her being there for me. I'm kinda scared to move on to a new life again. Thank you all again... I appreciate all the positive support around here. Always helpful!