[MissCharlotte]

Tomorrow is the day!
T is back and I have an appointment!

So why do I think it's a good thing that I didn't call him even once? Somewhere within the tangled web of fantasy and idealization I know that he is my therapist now and forever but my life is mine alone. The fantasy of owning him, being with him all the time, wrapping my arms around him, snuggling in his lap, having him read me a story are just that--fantasies from the infant who doesn't want to separate from her source of comfort. I challenge her now to find some adult satisfaction in her therapy.

[SpottedOwl]

((MissC))

I love that you are wanting to face therapy with a new perspective! And it IS a huge deal that you didn't need to call T once during the break.

I look forward to hearing how the adult you finds satisfaction in your therapy.

Excellent work!

[WePow]

WOW! Now THAT is just flat out awesomeness wrapped up in a blanket of adulthood if I ever saw it! Way to go!

[BlueMoon6]

Wow Miss C

Isnt it huge when we realize that we are adults going to therapy? We are so young when we are with T, yet we are actually adults who have lives and families and T is just our therapist? Its sort of bittersweet to regain our lives and leave the childhood fantasies to our child selves. Sigh...growing up....

((((((((((Miss))))))))))!!!

Secure attachment anyone?? Go, you

[Melbadaze]

miss c, yes the breaks enable me to come back into my adult mind...but once i get back in the room i normally feel the flood of emotions rush to the surfave again and all those pysvhic aches and pains vegin and i find myself travelling back to that childs mind...its not the adult that has a problem..so i just allow my mind to be where it must be to heal...but I find the break from all the regression relaxing and as T says..its the work we do here that will enable the adult you to grow stronger and strOnger...so the feelings of wanting to Be wrapped up in T are natural for the work that goes on...so as i too go back to T today, I will wave goodbye to the adult me again as I knock at T's door...and know at least its the adult that takes the child me to T..

[sunrise]

That's great, MissC!!

Originally Posted by MissCharlotte

I challenge her now to find some adult satisfaction in her therapy.

What does that look like for you? I am usually adult when I am in therapy, and I'm trying to think what gives me satisfaction there. Perhaps the feeling of engaging honestly with another person. Having some degree of reciprocity in the relationship instead of it being so one-sided (the child saying me me me). Feeling cared for (this one can be adult or child). Feeling understood, like someone "gets" me. I think also the play of our intellects can be enormously satisfying--the give and take of our brains as we weave a story each time. And the honest affection we have for each other. And I am sure there are more. A lot to look forward to, MissC. Have a great session tomorrow!