[Kiya]

and yep - i'm struggling. but what's new. i had sudden progress, and now backtracking in crisis that i am not supposed to be going thru. remind me again why she goes on long vacations every 6 months?
I did finally schedule with a back up t - but it isn't until tuesday, and the crisis i managed to put off for almost 3 days hit. so back up t too late. I'll still go. but i am bummed.

[skeksi]

Kiya, I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I am on the last few days of my T's vacation and it feels like it has gone on FOREVER, not just two weeks. My emotions are all over the place, both with the stuff we've been working on and my feelings about T.

I am glad you have an appointment scheduled with the back-up, even if you you don't feel like it will help. Making contact with someone else is a good thing.

How long is your T gone this time? Do you have a plan for what you can do when things inside get stirred up?

[mixedup_emotions]

Ugh. I'm sorry the timing of all this stinks for you. I hope you have some other mechanisms in place to help you with the crisis...and as always, there's PC!

I know that with my most recent issue that I posted about earlier, I was very tempted to call T - since my next individual session isn't until Thursday which seems so far away....I hate having to deal with these feelings without T.....But, I posted here instead, reached out to a friend, etc. and am trying to deal with my feelings as best I can until I can see T. And it has been very, very helpful.

[BlueMoon6]

((((((Kiya))))) Im so sorry that you are going through a difficult time now.
I have to say that I think that it is a really good self-care to make an appointment with the back-up T. It seems huge to me. Does it seem huge to you? It seems like a real act of loving and caring about Kiya to see someone you dont know for help.

Im wondering if you have ever seen him/her before? Maybe you will really like this T? I know your T has suggested seeing someone more qualified to talk to you. Maybe this will be a good introduction into seeing someone else? Someone with another approach? Am I way off base here?

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((( kiya )))))))))))))))))

[Kiya]

I have seen the T... last time mine was out. She's ok. I felt like i already knew her. I wouldn't even bother, if i weren't falling into SI, drinking, and negative catastrophy thinking again. T is out another 2 weeks, so i'd best just get in there. Thing is, i really don't want her reporting to my T how far i slipped. Ah well. I guess they can't help if they don't know. Then I will go to group that night.
The other T is also going out of town (go figure). She has her own practice. I could see the other t's in my building, but i really don't like them. Well, i like group t sort of. But when i asked him about him being a back up, he didn't seem to be thrilled about the idea.
Just go back to dealing with it on my own. It's what I do. Why reach out IRL when ppl are not really there. you know?
Reaching out to PC is great - there are ppl who respond. (((((((((All)))))))))