losing momentum

(((Jexa)))) Im reading along here and I find it hard to believe that considering your history and where you are at now that your therapist would consider you to be done with therapy. You have pretty much told her that the thought of it makes you panic and with good reason! There is so much to work on toward a peaceful life, why in the world would she even suggest that you have reached your final goal with her and send you off.

When I read that she said it wasnt her intent, is there something more that you dont trust there? Do you think she is covering something up or that she just doesnt want to work with you?

Im not really sure, but I think when therapy really does end for someone it does so with a measure of peace. That the client feels she can do this on her own, she doesnt have anything more to work through that she cant tackle in daily life. HOw can your T think that this is where you are at? So, now that said, I think she probably was honest when she says she doesnt intend to send you away. What do you think?

No I think she IS being honest that she isn't going to send me away. But I still FEEL like she's kicking me out even though it doesn't make sense. She has already said it wasn't her intent to kick me out. But knowing this logically doesn't seem to touch my feelings. I guess "abandonment" has been triggered. I know it's imagined abandonment, but knowing it's imagined doesn't help. It still feels so real.. and I've still been crying about it. This is why CBT does not work for me.. logic just does not permeate this.

My mind is screaming, "Don't leave me! I need you!" No one is leaving! She is NOT abandoning me! Ugh.