sooooooooooooooooo miserable

Popping first wb right now

I'm sorry I'm so scared. I'm learning a lot about myself through this.

This morning, I realized a lot of it is about control. I can control how I feel through my various addictions (or I FEEL like I can control how I feel). This makes me feel not in control.

I KNOW it makes no sense. that's why I'm in therapy.

I took Wellbutrin at one time too. Like almost all psychotropic medications, I could not even tell that I was taking it. It made no difference at all. That experience has turned me off of this kind of medication.

YMMV, as they say.

On the other hand, I have been on welbutrin for over 3 years. It has kept my depression at bay so I can actually make progress in therapy and other areas of life. And I have no noticeable side effects (Although as others have pointed out, for a few days I was a bit more 'hyper' than usual. But that settled down very quickly) These are not 'happy pills' as the uninformed often refer to antidepressants. They make life tolerable, not easy. But more importantly, these medications each seem to affect different people in different ways. I hope in your case, treehouse, that you find some relief.

Im glad, Tree I hope you feel some relief, soon. What is the dose you are taking?

As I said, I didnt feel any real side effects from wb. Maybe the first day a little hyper, but after that nothing.

I hope T is especially understanding to you today and safe hugs, take care of you

Hope you are doing better this AM. Thinking of you.

I DO feel very different since starting the wellbutrin - I think it's a little "speed"y, and that makes me at least be able to get up and DO things, which helps.

Last Sunday was the day that I took the pills. Sundays have been really really really REALLY hard for me for a while. So today I kind of asked inside to see what was wrong (I don't know why I didn't think of doing this until now - I think I was just TOO DEEP in it) and I think I know what my deal is with Sundays. Sometimes just knowing helps a little.

((((((((((((((((Treehouse))))))))))))))))))

Sunday's are SO hard for me too. SO SO SO hard.
I'm glad things are a little clearer for you today.

(((((((Tree)))))))
I'm glad you are getting some answers as why Sunday is so hard. Hopefully that means you can work on it in T. Many hugs to you.

No it does make sense. The part that seems confusing is that no one can control so many emotions. You can control a little bit a little, like when you get angry you need to stay somewhat in control. But our feelings weren't meant to be stuffed away and then controlled and this is what makes this feel so crazy. In therapy you can release all of these stuffed feelings over time and then you won't need to control them so much.

hi tree, i know this is 4 mos later...
i was looking thru threads tonight and saw this thread and i was so happy to read through it.
i was prescribed wellbutrin today and i am to start it in the morning. i am PETRIFIED to start it.
i have PTSD, dissociation, derealisation, depersonalisation, panic, (formerly w/agoraphobia), OCD, general phobias...
i had been researching online antidepressants that DIDN'T cause weight gain + ptsd meds and i came across a few threads on different sites that mentioned wellbutrin + topamax for ptsd. my doc gave me wellbutrin today and said if i felt i wanted to add topamax in a week, i could. i read mostly only good things about the combo online on lots of different sites....
so now that i am just starting with only wellbutrin, i'm petrified. i don't know why. i guess it's a control issue. my main concern is it's making me panic because my pdoc said it isn't good for someone with anxiety and keeps wanting to put me on SSRIs that will make me gain even more weight & have even less libido... although my depression is SO BAD that i think the wb couldn't hurt-- and i'm gonna be panicky either way if i take it or not...
and if i'm less depressed, won't i be less panicky? i also have xanax 1-3 mg/day as needed, so shouldn't that help with the anxiety?

anyway i was wondering if you are still taking it, did it make you panicky? i saw you said it was "speed-y" but in a B-vitamin way, or a scary panicky way?
i am super sensitive to changes in my body and environment-- even to caffeine... i used to take SSRIs and they made me gain 80 lbs but didn't make me any less depressed or any less panicky.

sorry for going on and on... i'm so scared to take this med and was wondering if you found your fears to be just apprehension but after taking it felt relief? are you still taking wb? did it help?

thank you for sharing your experience here- it helps lurkers like me who need some help and comfort! i hope all is going well with you!
~brink~

Hi ((((((((((((((brink)))))))))))))))))))

I am SO glad I started the wellbutrin.

I did have that speedy feeling for a few days...but it wasn't an anxiety feeling. I just had a LOT of energy - which felt REALLY so much better than the crushing fatigue I had been feeling. I couldn't sleep very well for maybe 10 days or 2 weeks, but that finally went away, and now I sleep fine.

I do think that it helped me over a hump and allowed me to keep moving forward. I wonder sometimes if I can go off of it now, but I think I'm going to stay on it and let myself feel better and keep healing.

Good luck - like you, I was REALLY anxious about starting it - but I'm so glad I did it.

Hi onthebrink,

just wanted to add my support. As I said in my earlier post in this thread, I have been on welbutrin for quite a while now. And like treehouse I sometimes wonder if my brain chemistry is 'reset' and I could do without it now. But I'm in no hurry to test that. You can expect a few days to two weeks of feeling anxious or over energetic in some way. But that will most likely pass as your system gets used to the stuff. Unlike other ADs I tried, this one does not dull my emotions. It seems to simply raise my baseline mood to something tolerable. I still have my down times, but they last a few days, not months on end, and are never as dark as the depths I lived in for so many years. I hope it works as well for you

thanks guys!
i took it this morning at 8 along with .5mg xanax. it is now 10:52 and so far so good... first thing i noticed was all the chatter in my head went away- my mind was actually quiet.
i might add that my 7-year non-existent libido (8 years of SSRIs KILLED my libido and my metabolism) kicked in within an hour and a half of taking this drug-- hubby is happy i was quite surprised...
first thing i wanted to do when i got up was to go clean the back yard, so it must be doing something good. my OCD is quiet (i count CONSTANTLY in my head- it's gone at least for now)
i hope it stays this good...
thanks for the advice and support, yall, it helps tremendously!
~~brink~~