For years I have had a recurring dream about my t's. Sometimes it is the one I had in college. Last night it was my current t. I always have these dreams when I'm feeling on the edge of an episode. It is always basically the same. I'm trying to find my t, but I can't. I look everywhere but he has gone somewhere else. I keep missing him. Last night was a variation on the theme. I was trying to call my t and I kept punching in the wrong numbers and having to start over again. I kept trying over and over with no success. It's a really panicky feeling.

That's kind of where I am I guess. Fortunately I see him tomorrow. I think I'll tell him about the dream. I've been on the edge of calling him all weekend, but it really hasn't been an emergency, just that need to connect and recenter.

I had horrible heartburn before I went to bed last night. So bad that I thought maybe it was food poisoning. I considered going to the er. It was lousy. Anyway, I didn't get to sleep until about 5:00 AM, so my sleep was really off last night. I'm sure that was part of what brought on the dream.I'm feeling a bit like a sinking ship right now. (The smiley is perfect.)

[TayQuincy]

I read this thread right before I went to bed last night, and wouldn't you know it, I had the same type of dream about my former t!!! I was trying to reach her by phone and couldn't remember her number, and then when I did remember the number I couldn't dial it correctly and had to keep hanging up and starting all over, which only made me forget the number again and again, or misdial again and again! As soon as i woke up I thought of this post and reading it last night!

Hope all goes well at your session today!

That's what you get for being up so late!

[WePow]

OMG Farmergirl - that sounds like a nightmare for sure!!
It sounds like you may fear being in a situation where you are trying to remember what T told you to do or has handed you the tools you need to help yourself, but you forget how to use those tools and it sends you into a panic.

Let us know what T says if you want! Very interesting!!

That's an interesting interpretation. Might just be. I am SOOO glad I see him today. This last week has seemed very long.