[googley]

I'm scared I'm going to loose my T. I am having to go down to once a month sessions because of money. I'll be seeing someone from the school clinic also. I'm afraid I'm never going to have the money to go back to seeing my T more often, and then she will drop me. I don't want to loose my T. And I feel like we haven't had enough time to talk about this. And I still feel like there are so many things that we left hanging open. I don't know if I am going to be able to go back to them when I am seeing her monthly. And I don't know if I am going to be able to open up to the new T about anything sensitive since it takes me so long to work to trust a new T. I just feel like a mess.

[zooropa]

(((((googley))))) I'm so sorry. I hate that money is interfering w/your therapy. I wish I had some great words of wisdom for you, but I just have lots of love and hugs

(((((((((((((googley)))))))))))))

It is SO hard when money messes up therapy. I'm so sorry you're going through that.

Can you try to just be in now, without projecting so much into the future? The things you are scared of might not happen. In fact, I'm learning that the things I'm scared of almost NEVER happen.

When my dad was alive, he was SO worried about being able to afford retirement. That fear was the driving force in his life in so many ways. He worked around the clock, saved a TON of money, and still worried, worried, worried. He was diagnosed with cancer at the age of 55 and died when he was 56...9 years before retirement. He spent his whole adult life being afraid of something that never happened.

It's hard to not latch onto fears when they seem so REAL. But I learned a lot from watching what happened with my dad.

Hang in there, googley. Love and hugs to you.

[peaches100]

Originally Posted by googley

I'm scared I'm going to loose my T. I am having to go down to once a month sessions because of money. I'll be seeing someone from the school clinic also. I'm afraid I'm never going to have the money to go back to seeing my T more often, and then she will drop me. I don't want to loose my T. And I feel like we haven't had enough time to talk about this. And I still feel like there are so many things that we left hanging open. I don't know if I am going to be able to go back to them when I am seeing her monthly. And I don't know if I am going to be able to open up to the new T about anything sensitive since it takes me so long to work to trust a new T. I just feel like a mess.

Hi Googley,

First off, . You sound like a bundle of nerves right now. Understandable. I would be too.

My first thought after "Oh, poor Googley!" is that it sounds like you may be jumping to worst case scenarios in your mind, which is scaring you even more. Why would your t would drop you just because you're seeing her once per month? Unless she has given you some reason to think that she would drop you, i would say don't worry about it. Or, if you can't stop worrying about it, ask her directly if seeing her less often would lessen her commitment to working with you? I'm sure it won't.

If this decision to go monthly was rather sudden, i can understand why things feel "hanging open" and unresolved. It sounds like you're wondering if once monthly sessions will enable you to continue working on the issues you've been working on with your t. Could you tell her that in order to feel comfortable about this change, you need her to explain to you how this change in frequency of sessions will affect your therapy? How will you proceed with regard to your issues? etc? It sounds like you need to know what to expect and/or how things will change. Change is hard for me, and if i were you, I would need more information also, so i would know what to expect.

[googley]

Originally Posted by peaches100

Hi Googley,

First off, . You sound like a bundle of nerves right now. Understandable. I would be too.

My first thought after "Oh, poor Googley!" is that it sounds like you may be jumping to worst case scenarios in your mind, which is scaring you even more. Why would your t would drop you just because you're seeing her once per month? Unless she has given you some reason to think that she would drop you, i would say don't worry about it. Or, if you can't stop worrying about it, ask her directly if seeing her less often would lessen her commitment to working with you? I'm sure it won't.

If this decision to go monthly was rather sudden, i can understand why things feel "hanging open" and unresolved. It sounds like you're wondering if once monthly sessions will enable you to continue working on the issues you've been working on with your t. Could you tell her that in order to feel comfortable about this change, you need her to explain to you how this change in frequency of sessions will affect your therapy? How will you proceed with regard to your issues? etc? It sounds like you need to know what to expect and/or how things will change. Change is hard for me, and if i were you, I would need more information also, so i would know what to expect.

It was really sudden. Like two weeks ago and then she was gone last week on vacation. I always end up running out of money at the end of the school term because of loans and so I decided I can't deal with the stress of never being sure if I am going to have enough money until the next set of loans are dispersed. Hopefully I can save up money over the summer to see her in the fall more, but I have two other large expenditures of money starting in the fall. So I don't know if I can afford it then either. I HATE money. I think we will end up talking a lot about this on Thursday, but I'm still really nervous about it. I'm afraid I'll just go in and start bawling like last session and hardly anything will get done. And then it will be forever until I see her again. And there are all these other things I need to talk about too that have nothing to do with the change. I hate this all.

[rainbow8]

I'm sorry about your financial situation, Googley. It's hard to have to reduce your sessions. I know because I did it when my H lost his job and also when I was winding down my therapy with my former T. But monthly is better than nothing. Will she let you email or call her in between?

You never know how it will be with a new T. I'm basically shy and used to take FOREVER to open up to Ts. It got easier through the years, but my new T makes it even more comfortable for me to open up. So, you may find that you trust the new T sooner than you thought you would. Your T is not going to forget you! My T told me that she cares about me whether she sees me more often or less often. This is Bt, my former T. Even though I haven't seen her for 4 months, I know she hasn't forgotten me, and still cares how I'm doing.

[Amazonmom]

Money issues suck. I think you said before that as long as you can see T monthly you will not lose T. Try to hold on to that....

You've been through hell lately, Can I offer you a hug?