Trying to get Internist to understand need for new Phych. Dr.

I waited 3 weeks for my referral from my Internist after him recommending that I go back to tx. after 4 years of denial that my CBT skillls are dull and lacking. He wanted a professional to Rx new meds. if they were appropriate.

My previous counselor(s) rotated every 3-4 weeks (LCSW), hospitalized for 5 days previously voluntarily, non-lifetreatning, diagnosed with PTSD, Bi-Polar, anxiety,depression, etc. all steamed from repressed "incident" when I was 13. I'm now 46. My. Dr.'s referral was to a specialist in Sexual trauma, PTSD, etc.

Was on many meds., now am not and still wondering why I can't get out of this funk? I won't leave the house, I'm scared all the time, crying, depressed, etc.

I finally said yes to my Dr. and accepted his referral to a female PDr. and waited 3 weeks to see her. She heard what I had to say....and said that she would only see me if I went back into the hospital for at least one week and said "no" to me as a patient if I did not agree. I was so shocked. I made it clear to her that I had the CBT skills I just needed help with direction and talk therapy. I agonized for 3 weeks, obsessing about everything, how to get in the car, where to go, what to wear, what to say, how to say it, don't cry, cry baby! She'll hate you, your heart will expode!!!!! UGH!

She said no! Another rejection! No options! I don't believe it. I finally call for help to an expert and she slammed the door in my face!

I finally called "911" and she hung up on me! I finally feel ready to face all "THIS!" and she said NO!

Now what?

I just called my Internist back to tell him and I his nurse said that he wanted me to go to the hospital as well.......

NOT!

I have an appt. on Tuesday, June 1 at 0745.

What do I say? I've left a lot of details out but does anyone get how I feel and does anyone have ony suggestions as to what I do? I don't know what to say. I don't need the hospital. I just need a therapist to help me utilize the tools I have so I can better handle this.

Sorry for the rambling & thanks for the suggestions.

I don't know. The therapists say you probably should start with the hospital so some meds could be tried to help and then work out from there. I think it can be hard to work with us if they are not comfortable with what they're working with; if you have the tools, I don't know how they can "help you" use them, you are the only one who can use them. But if they're not enough at the moment to help you, then I would try doing things their way again, see if that can't help you get to a point where it's easier to use the tools/learn new ones, etc.?