[sittingatwatersedge]

Could use some reinforcements today, if anyone is available.
thanks!

[granite1]

you bet swe whats going on?you ok?

[mixedup_emotions]

I'm in your pocket today, holding on tight....with you for the ride.....((( HUGS )))

[seventyeight]

(((((((sittingatwatersedge)))))))

[Perna]

We going somewhere exciting? I always try to switch fear for excitement (works on roller coasters doesn't it? :-)

I'm here

[Rapunzel]

I'll ride in your pocket. Wanna ride in mine?

[jexa]

*shrinks*
*inserts self into SAWE's pocket*

[pachyderm]

((((SAWE)))) nice to peek at another T (if that is where you are going).

[phoenix7]

turns down her fiery feathers to dull and climbs in SAWE's pocket wiht the others bring teddys and hot chocolate

waits to hear if everything is ok ......



wishing you a guardian angel to watch over you - let us know whats happeneing ok ...

[sittingatwatersedge]

Originally Posted by pachyderm

((((SAWE)))) nice to peek at another T (if that is where you are going).

I just realized that I forgot to say where we're going to see T tonight. I thought I was on pretty good ground until a family member (one I felt close to and trusted) told me I ought to quit T, that they see it's ripping me up and not doing me any good. Now the anxiety meter needle is approaching peg.....Thank you all for your company!!!!!

[phoenix7]

what your family member sees may not be true - you know whether T si doing you any good - and dont let anyone cast a doubt in your mind - YOU know the truth - sits quietly in your pocket and waits for the trip

[rainbow8]

Hey, make room for me too! If I listened to my husband, I'd never have found my new T. Can you tell T what the family member said? Often from the outside it looks like we're worse, but only WE (and some of our friends on PC) know how it REALLY is for us. I hope your session goes well.

[mobius]

I'll be there...all small-like. P7 and Rainbow are right - only you can know if therapy is helpful or not.

[googley]

I'm along for the ride. Let us know if we need to kick any shins.

[Rapunzel]

Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge

I just realized that I forgot to say where we're going to see T tonight. I thought I was on pretty good ground until a family member (one I felt close to and trusted) told me I ought to quit T, that they see it's ripping me up and not doing me any good. Now the anxiety meter needle is approaching peg.....Thank you all for your company!!!!!

It often does seem to get worse before it gets better. If you have a broken bone that healed wrong and was left that way for years, the doctor would have to break it again to fix it. It hurts, but is the only way to get better. Therapy is a lot like that sometimes. It is stressful, and anxiety will go up for a while. Having to give up ways that you were coping, even if they weren't the best ways, leaves you without a way to cope until you learn new ones. Sometimes increased anxiety is a sign of progress. Change is scary.

[Melbadaze]

Sitting, sometimes "others" can't stand seeing what touches their own inner wounds? Hope everything went ok yesterday, didnt want to jump in your pocket coz the actual session is a very private thing and I was afraid I'd fall out and put you off what you were wanting to talk about

[sunrise]

How did it go, SAWE?

[sittingatwatersedge]

Originally Posted by sunrise

How did it go, SAWE?

MANY THANKS for all the pocket company, it was a great help to me.

(T's waiting area has brown ceramic tiles with random grey marks in them and after a while I begin to see patterns - faces, animals, etc. I'm convinced that one of you pocket riders does some sailing, yes? because I noticed a tile that looked like open water with waves moving across it )

I was panicking that I wouldn't be able to talk to T about anything important but she got right into the hard stuff. Also we had agreed to a goal recently, wherein I would do something I would far rather avoid, and now the occasion was drawing near, & I needed a lot of reinforcement on that. She was very good to help me with that.

Only at the very end did we get to my family member's comments, and disappointingly she would only give me that T line about it's entirely up to you; you are of course free to leave at any time. This really makes me feel SO abandoned (it feels like she is saying, "OK so hit the road, what do I care" ), but our time was up, I couldn't tell her. I think I will next time.

[zooropa]

Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge

I just realized that I forgot to say where we're going to see T tonight. I thought I was on pretty good ground until a family member (one I felt close to and trusted) told me I ought to quit T, that they see it's ripping me up and not doing me any good. Now the anxiety meter needle is approaching peg.....Thank you all for your company!!!!!

my closest friend said the same thing to me recently, SAWE. I think it's because she sees the anxiety I have before sessions, week after week after week, and then she sees how shattered I am AFTER sessions, most of the time. It's easy to look at that and say, wow, that is just tearing you up, why do you keep going?

I had to remind her to step back and look at the bigger picture. I have made so much progress, even though it has hurt like a mofo. And I have even more goals I want to meet.

[WePow]

Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge

Only at the very end did we get to my family member's comments, and disappointingly she would only give me that T line about it's entirely up to you; you are of course free to leave at any time. This really makes me feel SO abandoned (it feels like she is saying, "OK so hit the road, what do I care" ), but our time was up, I couldn't tell her. I think I will next time.

I am sorry that this is how you left things with T. Maybe like others remind me of around here, she did not mean it at all the way you took it?
IDK about how Ts think or why they say what they do. Ts are very scary right now to me anyway.

Tons of hugs!