Missing T and really needing her now - Possible Trigger

I MISS T! I feel so terrible and awful and I don't know what to do. I dream about her and getting to see her. I try to think of what she might be doing wight now, where she might be. Am I the only one who does this?

I tried making jewelry, a hobby of mine. I made her a necklace. I want to give it to her when she gets back as a I missed you and I am glad you are back gift. I am telling myself that I just need to hang around till she gets back. I have to be able to see her again. Just my old sui thoughts. Don't worry, I am not doing anything and my pdoc knows and my group.

I'm so sorry Lauru - how long until she's back?
It's hard when our rock, the only one we truly trust and th eonly one we truly believe understands, suddenly is gone.
Count down the days and you'll realise every day you are getting a step closer to her being back.

lauru i know things seem to get harder when T isnt around it always seems to add a bunch of issues along with the ones that are already thare.you will make it.when is T going to be back.i think making her the neclace is an awsome thing.i always make my T a card when she is gone it helps me keep her in my headand doing crafts is very calming to me.

What happens when she's your only support system and NEVER comes back?

Laura, yes it is hard when we miss someone, especially when that someone is caring and good for us. It does get better slowly though, I guess thats not very helpful to you right at this moment though. Glad you have a group and other help besides T.

One has to grief, as painful as that is, and if motivated, find someone else who can help them work through it??

She's not my only support. I just feel so weak right now. Someday she won't be there, but not today. I suppose I will find someone else, or no one at all and I'll end up where I was before, in psych hospital every time I have a med change or the depression comes back like it is now. I am trying, really hard, and frankly, your response doesn't help much, it seems a little harsh.

I should just delete this thread. But I don't know how. But anyways, never mind. I'll do this by myself, like I always have. I should have known it would be this way.

Lauru, I understand your feelings. Please don't feel bad about this thread -- I don't think Denise was talking to you -- I think she was talking about herself and her own issues. It sounds like she misses her T too, only her T isn't coming back. I don't think she meant to be harsh -- I think she was expressing her own pain.

I know you have to wait until August 12.. I myself have to wait until August 6.. what an eternity. I'm glad you have pdoc, glad you have group, but in the in-between times, it is hard to forget the loneliness, isn't it.

I don't know how to fix it. There's probably no way to really change our feelings for good anyway by just focusing on them. Maybe the best way is just to remember T, in the back of our minds, and keep breathing, and try to think of what we'd like to tell T about what we did in her absence. I'm sorry it's hard. Do you have friends you can lean on right now? A friend you can call and say, "Hey, let's watch a movie together and talk" or something?

Sitting with you,

Jexa