oh boy, fun today with T! - not!

Well fellow therapy peeps, my pocket today is open for any riders to session! T had to move it up a day because he has something Wed. So I will see him after work.

Usually that would make me thrilled, but not today. I had some sx stuff come up this weekend that I have to talk about with T. Honestly, I can usually handle this type of thing, but this is not about the past. This time it is dealing with my issues that are happening now as a result of the past.

I will not go into details, but if you are curious, I posted my events of the weekend in the creative corner. I said it was fiction, but so far it has been fact. And I emailed that info to my T. He is an addictions expert along with the PTSD and CSA stuff. So I am with the right person for this job. But I want to run away and hide under a rock right now!!!!

(((((((((((WePow)))))))))))))

I went and read what you wrote in the Creative Corner and I can SO relate to so much of it. The "natural response" is the hardest part of all of this crap for me, I think

I hope T is able to give you just what you need today.

Hard to get in your pocket with you if you're under a rock

The session probably won't turn out as you imagine! Be curious instead of afraid and/or, if you're feeling anxious, tell yourself you're "excited" (what's the difference? :-)

save me a pocket space WePow

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You are an exceptional writer! When you get your book published, I will be in line to buy it. I am sorry you have had to suffer so much in life. Yes, I will come along in your pocket today. I hope T gives you the help you need today.

Read it - I could feel it, excellent. I hope you will keep writing. Best of luck with the session today.

WePow,

I read everything you wrote and felt very moved. I felt your pain, as well as your newfound strength. You write wonderfullly. Write your book!

wee pow read you stories and wow .thanks for sharing.i'm in for the ride ans support

I love what you write. It's so raw and so well written.

Thank you all sooooooo much!

Make room for me in that pocket. Eeyore and I are along for the ride.

I hope you have a good session.

I didn't read what you wrote, wepow, but I'm along in your pocket as well.

(((((((((((( All )))))))))))))) You all are just SOOOOOOO awesome!!! I will put the details in my "fictionalized" story. But I thought of each of you there with me for support. It literally felt like I was surrounded by each of you and being rooted on to do what I had to do and to be honest with my T.

This is part of the after session email I just sent him:

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T,

You officially know me now better than ANY other human EVER has known me.
You made me feel safe in session. I felt respected. I felt validated. I felt human.
And the hug at the end was one of the best gifts ever.... because you demonstrated as fact that no matter what I say to you (and how 'dirty' I feel about myself for those things) that I am still viewed in the same way by you - as a fellow survivor and a nice safe regular human. Honestly... that was one of my B I G fears of seeing you today.
My fear was after you heard my reality (( and I knew I was going to have to be totally honest with you - no matter how hard it was for me)) that you would not offer me your hug because subconsciously you would either be afraid of me or think I was after you or that I was contaminated.... hummm.... I know, more of my "stuff" I am trying so hard to work through.

I honestly just wanted to thank you very much for making this one session nothing as painful as I thought it would be. You may not have any idea just how deeply this is coming from for me.

W "

So thank you all again!

Thank you so much for sharing WePow. That was a really nice email you sent.

Excellent! You are loveable, WePow, and the world has so much good in it for you!

((((((((( Oceanwave ))))))))))) Thank you! I think that is in the top 10 as one of the nicest things anyone ever said to me!