I want to call my T

I am having a horrible day. I was awake all night with anxiety then my son who is almost 2yrs old woke up and was awake for a couple hours having a non stop tantrum. I'm exhausted and all I've been doing is crying today. I want to call my T just to talk but I have no idea what to even say to her. I don't want to bother her just because I'm being overly emotional. I'm also feeling really sui today. I think last nights session just pushed me over the edge and I really need to get a grip.

I think it's okay to call your T and tell her you're having a really bad day and you don't know what you need from her, but you need something. Let her put her T skills to work and help you figure out what you need to hear from her that will help.
I hope you get some rest soon

How are you feeling today? Did you call your T? If you are still feeling so bad, by all means call her! You don't have to know exactly what to say.....just say what you posted.

I hope you're feeling better today.

Same as yesterday. Another night without sleep. My son is sick now so I was up most of the night with him. She doesn't work on Fridays so calling her now would be pointless. I did make an appt with my GP for different anti depressants since the one I'm on makes my anxiety worse.
thanks for asking I'm going to talk to my T at my next session about all this.

I'm so sorry your son is sick and adding your own sleeping and anxiety problems. I'm really glad though that you called your GP and figured out an overall plan to help.

I hope you get some decent sleep soon, JWD. I know from personal experience how much harder everything is when sleep deprivation is added into the mix. Do what you can to rest and take care of yourself, ok?

thanks something strange happened today.

My clinic called because I scheduled that appointment for a change in meds. They are doing a program to help with depression, where you're assigned a care team that goes between you and your dr to keep you healthy. Anyway, she asked if I was doing okay and I told her I wasn't. So she told me to contact my clinic RN and ask my dr to put me on something else. I wasn't sure they could do that without me going in. So I messaged the Dr and told him I couldn't handle being off meds but the wellbutrin is causing some pretty bad side effects that I can't handle. Within a couple hours he called me and sent over a prescription for Celexa. Which is what I have been on before for a few years and tried taking myself off of it in April in hopes to handle the depression without meds.

Yes- horrible idea. I need to face the fact that I'll be on meds for life most likely. But I feel like I can breath a sigh of relief knowing I am back on meds that do help. It's not as good for depression but really helps the anxiety, I think being in therapy + the right meds now will help the depression, instead of just trying to deal with the CSA on my own. I only tried the Wellbutrin because I was on something else that I can't take with an SSRI, but I told him I was more than willing to stop that med if he put me back on celexa. I hate being on meds, but I hate, hating myself even more.

My therapist always say that it is okay to call her, even just to chat when i feel depressed. But i don't really want to unless i really have to, i just don't want to sound like an needy, clingy and dependent client

I'm glad that your clinic called you. What timing!!

I'm also glad that going back to meds that you know work for you helps put you at ease.

I am on Lexapro and have been for a long time - and my GP recommended an increase in dosage when I was going through a really rough patch...while my T wanted me off meds.

Finally, at one point, my T was very concerned about me and called the pdoc right then in his office - and set me up with an appt, where the pdoc then increased my dosage. Go figure.

Meds are a tricky thing. I know some people feel down on themselves for needing these kinds of meds...but I am not one of those people. I am glad that there's something out there that can help me, because being in the darkness of a major depressive episode is a place I don't want to find myself back in...