The night before T...

REEG · Sep 29, 2010, 09:16 PM

The night before T and I can feel myself winding up. Sheesh.. feels so hard to do anything else other than sit and worry, I really don't want to talk with her about anything in depth and I sure don't want to cry again.
So, just for the next hour I'm going to try to put it in hold, knowing I can go back to worrying if I need to, but just for an hour I'm going to take a break.

Somebody remind me- the reason to keep going to T is???

geez · Sep 29, 2010, 09:33 PM

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Originally Posted by REEG

Somebody remind me- the reason to keep going to T is???

((Reeg)) For the reason you started going for. It can be very hard at times and other times great. I too feel this frustration of not wanting to go but make myself go aka for nothing more than blind faith in T. It's hard work but keep your end goal in mind and keep going until you reach it.

mixedup_emotions · Sep 29, 2010, 10:02 PM

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Originally Posted by REEG

The night before T and I can feel myself winding up. Sheesh.. feels so hard to do anything else other than sit and worry, I really don't want to talk with her about anything in depth and I sure don't want to cry again.
So, just for the next hour I'm going to try to put it in hold, knowing I can go back to worrying if I need to, but just for an hour I'm going to take a break.

Somebody remind me- the reason to keep going to T is???

I am right there with you....I too have a T session tomorrow and am dreading the idea of going. During my last individual session with T, I was so incredibly resistant. Then, in group T yesterday, I totally shut down. I just didn't want to do the work. I was too exhausted and was trying to conserve energy....and one group member kept pushing me and pushing me until I told him to "stifle it"

And the week prior, I cancelled my session with T.

So, here I am....not wanting to go to T tomorrow....

I don't know why, sometimes it feels so good to be with T....and other times, I get so incredibly anxious because I'm either avoiding the tough stuff, or don't have any idea of what to talk about....When I have "drama" in my life, it's so much easier to talk to T....UGH.

In group T, I can at least sit back and let the focus be on others....But in individual T, all eyes are on me. The spotlight shines and I'm on center stage....nowhere to hide....ACK.

Sorry for rambling, but I just wanted you to know that you're not alone.