[doogie]

I hope it is ok to post here. I haven't ventured out to other sections and I don't really want to. It does involve my T and my therapy, so I hope I can post here.

Since starting therapy and talking about my story and doing the trauma therapy thing, I have starting having episodes of losing time. I will be doing something then all at once it will be a couple hours later. Most of the time it will be triggered by being scared about something, but sometimes I don't know what triggers it. Recently, I've started going places that I don't remember, which is scary, considering I'm driving. My T knows all this.

My question is - have any of you had any experience with any of this? I know I dissociate - have therapy sessions I don't remember all of, watch myself sometimes do things, but these are things I "remember that I don't remember" if that makes sense. The losing time thing - I don't even know until I literally look up and realize how much time has past. It's really freaking me out.

Doogie

[jexa]

I don't get the "look up and realize how much time has passed" but I get the "I thought today was Sunday but it is Monday. What did I do Sunday?" and it will be totally blank. Once I went outside and my car had a big dent on Monday morning. I could not remember the previous day. I don't really know what triggers it.

I understand why it freaks you out. It is soo scary!

[sittingatwatersedge]

I've always been a faraway sort, in this case I think it came from wanting to be out of the battle zone at home.
When I read, I don't hear my DH right in front of me asking me a question.
I've gone outdoors and tripped over someone sitting at the bottom of some steps in plain sight.
I lose my car in parking lots,
in the family I am famous for Putting Things In A Very Safe Place and search me if I know where that is.
etc, etc.
But - I'm always like that more or less - Doogie if you are just starting to notice this sort of thing, it may be a sign that you've got too much to handle right now and maybe you are teetering, maybe you are pushing overload...
do you think you could write down a ilst of the things you do, or the stresses in your life, and see where you might eliminate just some of them? It's something that T suggested I do once, and I think I backed away from a cliff edge with her help.

Please let us know how you go

[WikidPissah]

I agree with sitting doggie....it is usually triggered more by overload. Maybe the trauma work is getting to be a bit much and you have to switch things around in your life to accommodate that. Or slow the trauma work up a bit. Losing time is a very frightening thing....I am so sorry you're going thru it.