[deliquesce]

having a bad time of it now. feel like i'm losing e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e, or that i was foolish enough to think i had people who liked me to begin with.

spoke a tiny bit to austin-t about being a bad person (i let him know that's why things happen the way they do) but that's all i said because we had run over time anyway. he thought for a very long time and asked me to tell myself that it's something he & i would work through together, that i'm not going to think about it by myself for the next fortnight. he's leaving on hols in december, but he made sure he booked 3 appts with me before then because he doesnt want to leave me sitting with it.

so even though i'm trying not to think about it... it's all stirred up and i feel like crap. my housemate is leaving so i need to find a new place. i sussed out one place i was prepared to move to, but they rejected me. the same stupid guy ive been interested in this whole year is ridiculously flirtatious one day and cold shoulder the next. i think he doesnt like me but cant help himself, and then is mean in attempt to push me away. if i cant find a place to live my option is to move back home. i dont really want to deal with any of this.

i really need some hugs.

(((((Deli))))). Hope things get better for you.

[pachyderm]

(((((deli)))))

Those bad things happening -- it must be because we deserve it, right? I mean, it doesn't happen to other people, so it must be us...

[jexa]

((((((deli)))))) Don't know what to say

[bpd mess]

(((((deli)))))

Oh, how I know that feeling of needing a hug! Hang in there.

[rainbow8]

Deli, I'm sorry you have all this going on. I hope you find a new place to live soon. austin-t is a good guy. I'm glad he is giving you the appointments before he leaves.

[granite1]

[alcira]

i so know that feeling.

[mixedup_emotions]

(((( HUGS ))))

I'm sorry you're having a such a hard time right now....

[jilliebeanmn]

**warm hugs**

[sittingatwatersedge]

(((((((((((((((( hugs for Deli )))))))))))))) good to hear from you.

[sittingatwatersedge]

>>>> if i cant find a place to live my option is to move back home.

oh Deli.

I think back when you were first looking for a place, "austin-T" (or maybe it was yr pdoc) was offering to help you with that - the offer is probly still open. You never know who might know of an opportunity.

[seventyeight]

((deli))

[Kacey2]

Hi Deli,
I am sorry to hear that you are hurting. I hope that you get some good quality t time before the holidays to work on some stuff.

I am glad that you are back. I haven't seen you post a thread in a while and I always look forward to hearing from you. Take Care Little Deli.

[gelfling]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((deli))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[Elana05]

Thinking of you, deliquesce.

You are an important and wonderful person.

My deepest good wishes are heading your way...

HUGS!!!

[geez]

((((( Deli ))))) x 100

Wishing you comfort Deli.

[chaotic13]

(((many cyber hugs))) Hope some good options and good people surface for you.

((((((((((((deli))))))))))))

i'm sorry things are so rough right now. any chance you can place an ad and interview for a new roommate and stay where you are?

as for things being your fault i think there are other explanations. i can think of one but it's too out there for me to post on this board. if ya want to know just PM me.

Hugs. I really hope you can find a new place and DO NOt move back home. That would be very bad for you.

[googley]

(((((((((((((Deli)))))))))))))

You are not at fault! These things are not your fault.

I care about you so much!

[imapatient]

Deli is a good person, not a bad person.

[googley]

((((((((Deli))))))))
More hugs for you!!!

You deserve them.

Keep working hard, you are worth it.

I care about you!