[KUREHA]

I know no one can tell me what to do, but I don't know if I should or not.

I don't want to take medication - I don't need it.
I told my nurse that not long ago and she agreed, but when I was talking to my psychologist, she said I should think about taking meds again.

I trust her a lot and she is really awesome, but I don't think she is seeing how it really is, but I don't want to let her down either.

[Ygrec23]

Why not try it for a while? You really don't need to stay on the meds if you judge, after trying, that they're not helping. Or you might ask your T to explain to you in greater detail just why it is she believes you would benefit from them. Ultimately, it's your decision and yours alone. Have you explained to T, again in detail, just why it is you feel you don't need meds?

[Gus1234U]

remember that many meds might come with some very unwanted side effects, and if you can manage your "condition" "symptoms" without meds, by learning skills,,, oh do go for the Skills option!~! Mindfulness, Cognitive therapy, Behavioral Therapy, Social therapy, all offer ways to adjust to the swings in mood or obcessive thoughts that are the effects of a brain chemistry disorder. Meds are not the "Magic Bullet". Best Wishes,,, Gus

[KUREHA]

Thanks,

Well she explained when I saw her, she said things would just stay the same.
I told her how things are happening and I'd get my nurse to see the police with me, because she believes me now, but she didn't think that would happen.

I'm doing Cognitive therapy, I did CBT for OCD with her and that worked really well, but the other stuff, she said without meds she can't help, it's because I know it's real - but she thinks it isn't.

[Princess_Obsidian]

Greetings,

Take your medication or not. It is your choice. Well, until your behavior becomes harmful to you and/or those around you. Then, such a freedom of choice will be taken away from you. Trust me, this is coming from someone who has been on medical enforcement for a few years now. I use to kick and scream all I could, to keep the medical professionals away, though, once I realized I was truly ill, not to mention, only adding to my illness/es the more I rebelled, I took accountability of myself by doing the best to comply with them.

Your case may not be a severe one, though, either was mine when I was first offered medication. Through the years my illness/es progressed, especially with my negative, " There is nothing wrong with me, attitude ". It took a few months of enforcement, and me feeling better, to see that I was truly ill and regret not taking my medication sooner. I wasted so much time rebelling, when I could have been enjoying my life. Oh well...

Anyway, as I mentioned above, the choice is yours, as all that are within your life. Please, think it through, thoroughly. Be kind to yourself and give it what it truly needs for you to feel healthy and happy!

Stay Positive!

Have a good one.

[KUREHA]

Thanks - I really don't need them though - if any one else had asked, I wouldn't be so confused.
I just don't want to seem ungrateful for everything she has done for me.

I'm not ill, it's not severe - it's all true, but no one listens.

I know, I got forced to take medication once - it sucked.

If I stop seeing my psychologist - then I wouldn't need to think about medication and I wouldn't be her 1 failure and I'm sure she is sick of me going on about the same thing.
Probably the best thing to do.

[Princess_Obsidian]

Greetings,

Originally Posted by KUREHA

Thanks - I really don't need them though -

If you truly do not need medication why did you receive it, in the first place?

Originally Posted by KUREHA

I know, I got forced to take medication once - it sucked.

Why were you once forced to comply, again, in the first place?

Could you please elaborate more on the past medical situations which lead you to this current one? Though, if you wish not to, I completely understand and still wish you the best of luck.

Have a good one.

[KUREHA]

I got sectioned, in case I hurt someone - I had to take meds to get out of hospital and to stop going back.

I got off the section and stopped my meds a bit after that.

They think I have psychosis - I don't though.

My psychologist wants me to take them again - so she can help me more, because she doesn't think what I tell her is true.

[Princess_Obsidian]

Greetings,

Thank you so much for elaborating. I am sorry you are having a hard time proving you are well, to them. If you do not mind my suggesting, stay clean, sober, and do your best to stay out of trouble altogether. Not to mention, try to be as positive as you can be. Let them notice the real you and any/all mistakes in judgement they may have bestowed on you. Of course, whatever you do, please do not try to argue with them and cause scenes, for that only convinces medical professionals that you are out of control and most certainly not well enough to be off meds.

You seem quite nice, to me, and I hope some part of the quiet, innocent, lovely vibe I am picking up from you, reaches those who think otherwise, such as certain medical professionals you have mentioned. Try to stay positive and I am sure, within good time, it will.

Have a good one.

[KUREHA]

Thanks for believing me, I've been trying to tell them for ages that it's all true.

I'd have to be killed by them, before they realise everything I said was true, I got told it was death or victory and I'm not going down.

People working where my nurse does are in the conspricay, people with the police are. I just have to be ready for the attacks and meds won't make me ready and alert.

I'm pretty much straight edge - just the odd drink now and then.

Hello, KUREHA. I hope you find peace and safety.

[kikki27]

Originally Posted by KUREHA

I know no one can tell me what to do, but I don't know if I should or not.

I don't want to take medication - I don't need it.
I told my nurse that not long ago and she agreed, but when I was talking to my psychologist, she said I should think about taking meds again.

I trust her a lot and she is really awesome, but I don't think she is seeing how it really is, but I don't want to let her down either.

Hey what are they treating you for like panic attacks things like that If it is panic attacks then no you dont need meds cause you can try things like deep breathing like you said no one can make you do nothing that you dont want to do.I see where you are coming from cause meds help one thing and mess with something else like stupid side effects.

[KUREHA]

For psychosis - that I don't have.

My psychologist thinks it will help with if I take meds while doing cognitive therapy.

There are sleeper cells everywhere though and I'm not ending up dead - I'll fight them all.

She thinks it might help me be calmer though and less paranoid.

[pegasus]

(((((((( KUREHA ))))))))))

You trust you psychologist don't you? And you have been with her a while now. How about trusting her again at this time and take the medication, that doesn't mean that you will be on the medication forever, just during the times that the psychosis is rearing it's head.

[KUREHA]

It's because I trust my psychologist - that I don't know what to do, anyone else I'd just say NO.

My nurse and psychologist are saying totally different things as well and it's confusing.

I don't want things to stay like this though and I don't want to hurt the wrong people.

[sane1logic1]

You are entitled to negotiate a dosage and experiment in finding a balanced set of remedies. It's so good you trust the psychologist.

I think that with the nurse, her apparent ambiguity is merely a mannerism that isn't related to you. I'm 100% convinced there is no conspiracy and no-one is thinking of killing you.

[pachyderm]

I am not much for meds because I have felt that they were being used mostly to avoid other people having to deal with my problems. And also because they didn't work!

But you might read the story of Elyn Saks, who wrote The Center Cannot Hold. She found she had to make use of medications along with psychoanalysis. Take a look at the book. It's good!

[WikidPissah]

(((hugs))) I know very well what it's like to have no one believe what you know to be true. It's a frustrating thing to have people tell you it's psychosis, or a delusion. Sometimes there is so much going on that our brain messes up the facts just a little. You don't want to hurt the wrong people, or people that are trying to help you. The medication might make you feel tired and dopey a bit, but after a few weeks your body adjusts. It won't be so bad that you can't protect yourself though. Try trusting your psychologist, just for a little bit. Give it a couple months taking the meds while going to counseling, it may help a great deal.

[wing]

Wouldn't you like to stop being scared all the time? You could compromise and just take one medicine for that.

[imapatient]

Originally Posted by KUREHA

For psychosis - that I don't have.

My psychologist thinks it will help with if I take meds while doing cognitive therapy.

There are sleeper cells everywhere though and I'm not ending up dead - I'll fight them all.

She thinks it might help me be calmer though and less paranoid.

Kureha, how are you doing now? What's going on?

((((((((((kureha)))))))))))

i also think you're a very sweet and lovely person. i'm not sure what the answer is though regarding the meds. maybe trying them out and seeing how it goes might be good?