Well, later today, actually, since it's after midnight....

I think I feel...apprehensive. We have a 90 minute appointment scheduled. I feel like I've finally put away those big yucky feelings from last week, and going there and facing them again feels like....ack. I know that's how I will heal. But still.

I knitted T some socks. Today is my three year therapy anniversary, and T's birthday is around this time, so I usually give him something small. I don't know if I will give them to him. I feel scared.

Just. Blah.

I want it to be okay. I think T and I will make it okay. And I think it will hurt getting there

[googley]

((((((((((((Tree))))))))))

It will be okay.

[WePow]

((((((((Tree))))))))) It will be ok. Just allow yourself to be in the NOW with T.

[sittingatwatersedge]

COOL!! hand knitted socks! I wouldn't know where to start. He will love them!

you don't have to talk about those things today, Tree; you can talk about anything you choose. If you need to give yourself a breather, do it.
Don't push yourself too hard, OK? I bet that is something yr T would agree with.

Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge

you don't have to talk about those things today, Tree; you can talk about anything you choose. If you need to give yourself a breather, do it.
Don't push yourself too hard, OK? I bet that is something yr T would agree with.

You're right, SAWE. I guess it just feels like we hit on this deep thing that we've never hit on before and while it's right here in the open, we should try to move through it a little bit.

And I am POSITIVE T will want to talk about my fear of him crossing boundaries..which will lead to all of the other stuff above anyhow...

B-L-A-H

[sittingatwatersedge]

((((((((((((((((((((( tree )))))))))))))))))))) I'll be thinking of you.

[jexa]

(((((tree)))))) You are so strong! You can do it!

[Elana05]

Sending supportive thoughts...

[jilliebeanmn]

sending warm wishes and thoughts for a good session.

[rainbow8]

I'm thinking of you, tree.