[mixedup_emotions]

I've been feeling so awful, emotionally, and I don't know why.

Sure, I could count off many reasons....but that would just be rehashing a broken record....but it's not like I can say THIS is why I feel down NOW. I just do....blech.

[ladyjrnlist]

That's me every other day lately. Don't worry yourself over trying to find a reason to feel bad. It'll only make it worse. Just focus on whatever positive things you can! Hope you feel better.

[SingDanceRunLife]

That's how I felt yesterday. I just felt so incredibly down and I wasn't able to pinpoint the reason or anything.

[rainbow8]

Could the change in weather have anything to do with it? The days are finally getting colder and winter is coming. I don't know if you were on daylight savings time or not, but where I live, it gets dark so early now! Yuk! I forgot what it's called, but maybe the earlier (if it applies) darkness is making you feel worse than usual.

[geez]

(((MUE))) If you feel like you can't distract yourself how about just writing in a journal. Just write down whatever comes into your head - kind of like a free association. You may be suprised at what you find. However now may not be the time for that? - perhaps just being kind to yourself and try and give yourself comfort (curl up with a good book perhaps?).

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

Could the change in weather have anything to do with it? The days are finally getting colder and winter is coming. I don't know if you were on daylight savings time or not, but where I live, it gets dark so early now! Yuk! I forgot what it's called, but maybe the earlier (if it applies) darkness is making you feel worse than usual.

Hmm, that's a good thought, rainbow....I don't usually have that issue...but lately, I've just been feeling so so soooo down...and all I want to do is go to sleep. I am waiting for my daughter to get home from being with her dad for a couple hours...and I know she'll want her snuggle time, etc. - but all I want to do is turn the lights off, close my eyes and never wake up....blech.

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by geez

(((MUE))) If you feel like you can't distract yourself how about just writing in a journal. Just write down whatever comes into your head - kind of like a free association. You may be suprised at what you find. However now may not be the time for that? - perhaps just being kind to yourself and try and give yourself comfort (curl up with a good book perhaps?).

Thanks, geez....I talked briefly with T about having a recurring nightmare that I've just come to accept. We didn't talk about the dream itself, but he said that he had a gestalt way of trying to figure out the meaning. I told him we'd save it for next session which is Thursday. He talked about how we can create different outcomes and that got me thinking....

Anyway....I was going to document the details of the dream and email it to him prior to our session so he could read it and reference it....but I haven't brought myself to do it. It's just awful...and embarrassing....and disgusting....and UGH....

Maybe that's something I can do, just to get it out of the way....but yet I see myself just curling up in bed until my daughter gets home.

Blech.

[geez]

(((MUE))) feel free to PM me anytime for support. Hoping you feel better soon.

[mixedup_emotions]

Aww, thanks, geez....

My daughter is home, safe and sound. She is sleeping now...which gives me the go-ahead to get some zzz's myself. Immersing myself in fantasy is my escape at the moment. I guess there are worse things in life, huh?

Goodnight. Sleep well my friends....

[sugahorse1]

I have been feeling rather flat myself. Not enough to classify it as depressed. I just find myself feeling a bit lonely and spending a lot of time in my head with my thoughts. It's irritating and frustrating, as you don't really move forwards. And you are unproductive and generally not happy.
So, all I can add is that you are not alone xx

[Sannah]

Could the nightmare and your coming work on it be causing you to feel bad lately?

[mixedup_emotions]

Good question, Sannah......It is something I'm dreading....and as I think about it, I become incredibly anxious...and I still have been putting off writing about it. I would much rather give it to T in writing than talk about it...yet, I'm having a hard time even doing that. *sigh*

[Brittany26]

I have felt the same way recently. I have no motivation to do sometimes even the smallest of tasks, and then i feel guilty for not doing anything productive. Which then i end up punishing myself in self pity, feeling even more so worthless. I then feel sad and pathetic about the whole thing. It just feels like a vicious circle.....wondering when will i snap out of it?!?!