How do I face T tomorrow?

(((( Rainbow ))))

I'm glad that you were able to reconnect with T...and that it helped alleviate your anxiety about the emails, etc. I am still in awe about how honest you have been able to be with T and that you are able to access all of these important feelings. You're getting somewhere. Where? I don't know...but you're getting closer....

You are such a kind, gentle soul. Your husband is wrong. i think you are getting better. Hugs.

(((((rainbow)))))

You have been so amazingly brave through this whole thing. Just sharing those emails with T and being willing to be so open with her, it's courageous.

I know it's hard when our sessions aren't as deep or intense as we would like them to be.
I'm glad you were able to connect with your T, though. She obviously cares about you a great deal.

Thank you for the encouraging replies. I also wish I knew what I am getting closer to. Maybe, how important touching is to me, and how I have been afraid of it at the same time. I'll post more about that in my "touch" thread.

I know I've been open and honest with my T. But so what? I'm not sure if she had to know all the feelings. Why did I have to tell her, for example, that the little part wanted to jump into bed between her and her husband? That I wanted her for myself. I don't know what good comes from the telling. Maybe that's the critic part. Apparently, T thinks there is a reason for telling her. But we don't get to it with my eyes open. I have to close my eyes to do the IFS stuff and get in touch with the child parts. Next session I will try to do that again.