[Elana05]

Going to see T soon. Only 547 things to talk about in 50 minutes. Sheesh. Why can't I just get everything fixed today? By Tuesday I am not really functioning on all cylinders while waiting to see T. I managed to shower and eat lunch. As for the 8 things I was supposed to get done this morning... well, none of them happened. Now if only I can remember all the things I should bring up in T. I feel tired.

[sunrise]

Elana, good luck saying what needs to be said in therapy today. Sometimes less is more, so if you don't get to all 547 topics, well, that might be OK! Hope you will check back and let us know how it went.

[bpd2]

(((Elana))) I know this one...not the answer, just the feeling...I've taken to making notes, but even that doesn't always work. Your T will help, and, remember: it's a process...

[granite1]

let us know how it went.i hope you were able to organise your thoughts and talk about what you needed to

[googley]

Hey Elana,
Sometimes I like to write down a list of what I want to talk about and then decide which things (or thing) I think would give me the most relief to talk about or I would be upset to not get to. Then I start with those things and go from there. If they get dealt with then I move on to things that are not as high of a priority.

I hope you have a good session and are able to get what you need to talk about talked about.

[Perna]

Yes, how'd it go? Did you decide to narrow down or just go for it. The first time I saw my T again after many years of a break, she says I "swamped" her

[Elana05]

Hi guys. Thank you.
Yes, it went OK. I got to the important things. My T said she was glad to see me. That made me feel very cared for...
I told her I just can't seem to get a grip on life and feel like any upset sets me back six paces. I had been doing better, had gotten a study and workout schedule going for a few weeks. Then the holiday and having family visit threw everything off, maybe also lack of T... I wish I was more durable, more resistant. I just feel so totally worn out all the time. She recommended meds again... and I am thinking about it again. They make me nervous (for various dumb reasons). I have the name of the pdoc she gave me. It is sitting by the phone.

hugs

That's so lovely that your T said she was glad to see you. I hope you can carry with you that feeling of being cared for.

How great that you had a study and workout schedule going- if you've managed it before, you will manage it again. It is totally understandable that the holiday has unsettled the routine you've got into- holidays require so much extra effort when we're already trying so hard. I think you *are* very resistant, it's just that you are putting a lot of your energy each day into things which others take for granted. It's ok to give yourself a break, or even to have wobbly days and weeks.

Good luck in making your decision about the meds.