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Zoo, I'm sorry T hasn't called. Maybe she didn't get your message. I don't know what else to say. A dream is just a dream; your T is NOT abandoning you. I wish I could do something to help you. Take good care. Resting is good!

I guess I feel like I did last night: I would call her again but I don't know what I would say. I don't know what I would ask or what I need. I need her to not be flaky, but I don't think I'll get that, even if I ask.

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I'm so sorry she hasn't called. I wish there were more suggestions I could give you. We are here to listen to you.

ok, so my T called me this morning. I really didn't want to answer the phone, but then I did. It was good to talk to her. She told me that she called 3 times last night and it just kept ringing, didn't even go to my voicemail. I totally believe her, my phone did an automatic update last night and was acting really weird.

So, she said she's really sorry she wasn't able to connect with me last night. I didn't tell her about all the emotional stuff I've been going through, because that's not the kind of thing she really wants to talk about on the phone, unless it's a safety issue. It was just really good to know she is still out there and she still cares about me.

She said to call her again if I need to or want to. This was just bad timing in the form of a stressful week for me, knowing T is leaving adding to that, and then not being able to connect with her. I will allow that when I left her the message yesterday I told her that I was calling with a question about registering my kids for school, so if she was using her spare moments during the day to return calls she probably shuffled me to the end of the list and called people in crisis first. I understand that, and I'm okay with that. When I'm in crisis she can tell, and usually tries to call me back soonish. Usually.

So. I'm feeling a little better. I'm going to group tomorrow, and then I'll see T on Tuesday before she leaves. I'm trying not to be sad about her leaving. She'll still be available by phone in a limited capacity. I'll survive.

(((((zoo))))))) I am SO glad you got to talk to T!! It sounds like although things are still not settled, you are feeling more able to get through this. I believe in you, zoo.

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I'm glad that your T called. I'm sorry your phone was totally screwing up last night. I'm so glad she called and was able to get through.

Z00. Sounds like a tough time. Good for you for finding that middle place and asking for what you need to get through it in a good way.

(((((((((((((Zoo)))))))))))) I sure hope group today is healing and healthy for you!

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