[Symbiosis]

Here's what happened:

We hit a breaking point last week regarding my neverending confidentiality worries and his complete lack of reassurance. When I was walking out, I turned back and caught one of those severely irritated looks on his face like, "Get out of here already! Arrrrrrrrgh!"

Obviously, I was devastated. I wasn't sure what would happen next. I picked up another appt. for the following week so I would have 2 instead of 1.

He started the next session completely differently telling me what he was feeling! Finally! And asking what I thought. Then wondering where we should go from there. And I decided I was just going to take the plunge and decide to trust that my confidentiality was preserved, rather than trusting him per say because he didn't say all that much to trust in. I told him that, too.

Then we went to the issue I was worrying about in the first place that I was reluctant to share with him because he had been so removed and unreassuring.

It went fabulous! He got it. He was reassuring on this issue. Something changed. The next appt (today) actually went somewhere! And he doesn't hate me. And I felt RELIEVED at the end...like better than when I walked in instead of worse.

Just wanted to give you guys something positive about my T situation since it had been consistently negative from the time I started posting here.

Thanks for everyone's support. I really would have been lost without y'all!

[Fartraveler]

That's great!! Thanks for sharing this.

-Far

[geez]

YAY Symbiosis!!!

Thank you for sharing. I hope to find some peace soon and your posting does give me some hope.

[sittingatwatersedge]

Wow, you're great!

Having caught his facial expression like that, I would have either faced him down "in the moment" , or I would have gone out the door never to return.

But you stuck with it - this is wonderful - and the two of you are working together better than before. So happy for you!!

[jexa]

YES! That's awesome! I had been worrying about how things would pan out for you Symbiosis. I know things hadn't been going well and that your concerns about confidentiality were making it hard to continue with this T. I'm SO glad things have resolved themselves.

[jazzy123456]

thank you so much. i'm gonna need this myself...something like this to happen.!

T got you! that is so awesome when that happens.

How did you manage to go back to t, even schedule two appts when you saw that look on his face? i would have been so devastated, that is why i can never look at t....think he hates me, not so much anymore, but yeah, still a little....

[sunrise]

Originally Posted by Symbiosis

And I felt RELIEVED at the end...like better than when I walked in instead of worse.

That's fantastic!! Thanks for sharing your good news! I love how he shared about himself at the beginning of the session. That can really help build trust.

Originally Posted by Symbiosis

I decided I was just going to take the plunge and decide to trust that my confidentiality was preserved, rather than trusting him per say because he didn't say all that much to trust in.

That is so brave. You really took the plunge and decided to believe instead of just sitting there endlessly not trusting (I poke fun at myself). The payoff is big. Sometimes it works to just go for it!