[Omers]

For those new to the story... I first met my T when I was working on a graduate degree at a school she teaches at. We liked eachother right off but never really interacted much. I registered for one of her classes but got booted/left grad school before I actually started the class. Fast forward 10 years (OMG! I'm old! Crap!) and now she is my T. If you have read my other posts you know that she is not exactly the warm fuzzy type except for the hug at the end of each session... which she initiated because she remembered that I was a hugger from school. We worked together about a year but I pay out of pocket and she ain't cheep (no sliding scale) other things became financially more important. That winter I went inpatient in a royal mess of events... Things cleard up and now we are working together again... Well since we came back together we had one good session but all our other sessions/interactions left me feeling like she didn't want to work with me (OK, she outright stated that one) and I dunno... just YUCK!

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So we have our session today. She didn't use the shortened version of my name that she typically uses when she came to get me but then there was someone else in the waiting room... anyway... just that sent my mind racing! (OK and it didn't help that his T was standing behind my T and his T is smokin' hot!) We did the social niceties and somewhere in there PC came up... to which I got the "tell me more" that I hear way too much. So we are talking about the role PC is playing in my life right now for the entire hour!!! With her excitedly jumping in with a "can we do a session on this?", "ooh can that be a session?", "can we talk about that next time?"... yeh... picture the movie version of a child at christmas (hmmm... mentioning christmas this soon after... may need trigger warning...). OMG! She is excited about working with me again! We weren't just trudging through the session like a dense swamp. She actually schedualed with me for when I wanted her to rather than pushing me as far out as she thought she could without me catching on (even though I had caught on).
We also talked about how I didn't "need" therapy... My depression is very clearly chemical in nature not connected to aniversaries or day to day life, I no longer have enough symptomology to qualify for a Dx of PTSD and the aspi is always going to be there. This was a HUGE risk as not having goals and a Dx she could work with was one of her big points for us to not work together... But... (This would be the YAY part)... we talked about how I "wanted" to be in therapy, specifically with her... Not because of transferance or attachment issues but because I thought that she specifically had things that she could teach me to make me a better person... I then quickly back peddled mentioning that I am private pay so it's not like insurance fraud or anything and I hope she didn't find it unethical to ask her to be in more of a teaching role... and she was experienced in this and that... Her reply... "I think thats GREAT!"
would have fallen backwards couch and all had their not been a wall behind me!
As I walked down the steps outside her office I heard something that I hadn't realized was missing until I herd it again... "I'll look forward to seeing you in a couple of weeks then".

There were lots of other things and several rather frigid moments... but even those had a warm side.

she's back, she's back, she's back!!!!!

[WePow]

(((Omers))) That is WAY cool !!!!! I am very happy you have your T back and she is excited about working with you!!! You deserve that!