[Elli-Beth]

I've been working with my T for 3-4 months now, and he's really helped me get through crisis mode and all has gone well.

But... I'm really really really dreading tomorrow because I just don't want to get into the deeper past reasons why the crisis happened, which is what we're starting to look at. It makes me cry and scared and the mutism kick in just thinking about it.

He says we don't have to go there, that we can talk about whatever I choose, but I hate the idea of an expensive appt just to chat about my dogs.

I hate this whole stupid load of crap...

[SpiritRunner]

((((((Elli-Beth))))))

[Elli-Beth]

Just woke from a dream. I know there's a dream forum, but since it relates directly to my appt today, I'm putting it here.

I was running away from two bad men and I saw a small fenced in area and started to climb the fence to escape. Inside was some sort of snarling dinosaur sniffing at me, ready to have me for lunch. The top of the fence was slanted for security, and I was literally sitting on the fence deciding whether to hop in and be eaten or to stay outside and take my chances with the two bad men.

My T isn't big on dreams, and he'll just say he thinks the meaning is obvious, but I'm still sharing it with him today.

[Can't Stop Crying]

Hang in there!

[WikidPissah]

yea there comes a place when T is past you just getting comfortable with him, and starts pushing some work on you (ie:talking about yucky stuff)

Good luck today...if it's any help, I totally get how you feel.