T cancelled :(

we are so sad
our T cancelled right before the holiday
she texted us
and said shes sorry but shes jjust too busy tonithe
she has school and stuff and a test to take
1 of our biggest screamers is ok cos T painted her nails the other night so she is doing ok
but some of us is not doing ok cos theres scary easter stuff that goes on inside
we love easter cos of Jesus but there be bad stuff that happend that the bad pepol did and we really needed to talk to her tonithe
she said maybe we can talk on the phone over the wekend
we are just sad and disapointd cos she have had to chanje days and chanje times and where we meet lately a lot and
we need stuff to be stabol so bad
we alwys look forwared to going to see her
sory for ritng so little
haveng DID is stupid it just makes you need pepol that let you down

(((HUGS))) I hope you are able to connect with your T over the phone this weekend.

I am so sorry! I hope you can connect, too..... (((((((SarahMichelle)))))))

Yeah, hope you guys get to touch base this weekend (and that she is good on the phone!!!!!!). It is really nice that she painted your tonails. Maybe you could do your other nails to match or something else nice instead of session. Sorry she cancelled that sucks.

(((SarahMichelle))) You don't have to have DID to need people that let you down.

Can you try to focus on the good side of Easter- maybe think about Jesus and how nice he was to do what he did for us? If you can't talk to T, maybe you can write her a letter. You're good at expressing yourself in posts, I'd bet you'd be good through letters too.

*hugs* im sorry your having a tough time. I can understand why you feel low.

My mental health worker cancelled on me today - well she just didnt bother to come in to work which I predicted, as she often does it right before a holiday! I only ever see her every 3 weeks so it will be 4 or 5 weeks by the time I see her. Because of Easter holidays I also dont see or talk to my T for 2 weeks so I know what it feels like

we have a ester baskit for her to
now her gona get it late
hopfuly we can see her on tusday like ushual
but that do seem so far away
dizgirl we sory you got to wate so long!

Take this chance to show your little ones inside that YOU can be fun too ;-)
I am so sorry T can't give you what you need at this time. That really is hard.
But you CAN give yourself what you need. You can do it.

Thank you for the support.
Its been a tough day/week in general since we've had some deaths in the family recently and some things that went on at work today that were a big challenge and then you've got your general holiday things with family to deal with...all that stuff.
My T had said she was going to talk to me tonight, but I generally don't get many turns (I'm the "helper" part of this whole DID group) so I'm not really surprised that therapy got cancelled on my night or pre-holiday... just seems to go that way in general.
Tonight we're going to try to read a good book and get to bed early-- hopefully that will help

Helper parts are awesome. Thank you for doing that for the whole.

Sounds so tough So glad you were able to do something helpful for yourself

We went to bed at 8:30.
Yesterday was a really tough day and it was exhausting (at work, with the kids, everything)
Haven't heard from our T today.
holiday with family coming up and we are wanting to run away.

(((((SarahMichelle)))))
I want to run away too.
I wish I could just skip over this weekend.
So, just saying I understand.
It will be ok.....you will get through it and I will get through it.
Stay safe and be kind to yourself.

I hope that you are able to talk to your T soon.

Yah...we will get through it-- always do. It just get tough at times. Some of the inside kids are SO upset. I am trying to carry on with a smile on my face for the holiday (Easter is so important to us because of Jesus) >it just wears me down a bit to have the inside kids so freaking out over things. I hope Tuesday night gets here really quickly.
They are a bit afraid that they will never see our T again That she will never come back.

Your T will come back. The fear is there for some reason... can you feel your way into why you fear your T will never come back?

we are really missing her by now
havent heard from her yet at all
usually she will at least answer an email (she is probably just gone for the holiday or something though)
Easter (while joyful at church on Sunday morning) is a tough holiday for us
we've had a tough & challenging weekend, and all this stuff we need to talk about has just built up in us
we feel like a bomb about to explode
i am not sure we get afraid that she will never come back
probably because in our history we have had a lot of people who just "went away" (moved, disappeared for no reason, or died) and were just all of a sudden gone even though they weren't supposed to... and we needed them but never heard from them again
its a big fear for us
we miss her lots
we need her

Stay strong Sweetie, Tuesady will be here soon! My T gets home on Tuesday as well so I also can't wait for it.

last nite i emald her cos i ask her waht day do we come
monday or tusday
and i say we wereed bout her cos her did say her wuld call us cos her say
we culd ether talk on the fone or talk on skype
and her dint evn call

we gottid a emal today

her say
her forgot

over ester wekend
a SA wekend
and after her had to cansol on wensday and thursday her forigot

and her allso say her out of town
that her wud get bak to us

her dint say to come monday or tusday
probley not tonite
we dont no if we evn gona see her this week ether!
we cant say it but this wekend did be so hard
famley stuff
and RA stuff
we love easter cos it be wehn jesus come bak to life and we love to go to church
but the rest of it just be so hard
and we do have so mutch inside that we dont be alowed to talk about with pepol

the big pepol say SEE we told you we cant trust her
they say SEE you cant belefe anything she say now
cos her say her wud call and her dint
that men you cant belefe anything she say now cos her dont kep her word
do them be rite.?

we miss her

Our therapist texted us last night to say goodnight and that she was back from out of town.
But she didn't say if we were coming tonight or not. We texted her back to say goodnight and asked if we were going to see her tonight, but haven't heard back from her. AAAGGGGHH!!!!!!!!
So we still dont know !!!this is really starting to make us nuts.
ha, like we weren't already.

The uncertainty sounds really hard. You are doing so well. I really really hope she replies and you can see her tonight...

We finally got to see her last night! She said she had a family crissis going on over the weekend. We are supposed to go see her tonight also hopefully. The inside kids were so glad although they had a bit of trouble talking to her for a while. A couple of them talked about how much it hurt their feelings to get cancelled on twice and then forgotten about. But i think it pretty much got worked out.

good, glad it worked out to see her!

She might have to cancel tonight. we just got a text from her. i really hope not. the stuff we talked about last night was really triggering and needs to be talked about lots more. i really really hope we can go again tonight.

oh no I hope you get to see her