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My T is leaving soon for a 2 week vacation out of the country. I respect his personal life to not ask, but I am dying to know where! He smiled half-jokingly telling me that it won't do any good to leave messages for him on his pager during that time. He also said that the server auto-deletes them after two days anyway. I am reminded of the movie "What About Bob?". I should call T before he leaves and joke, should we reenact that movie? I will miss him (and his voicemail!) while he's gone. I love having his pager number available to leave messages. LOL, I am sure he will enjoy the peace and quiet!

During the time he will be gone, I will see a new pdoc. I am pretty sure that I will like this guy. Since I work in pharmacy, I have talked to him on the phone before for refilling presriptions for his patients, plus I have even filled and sold his own prescriptions to him. He seems to have a good personality and sense of humor--very important! We'll have to see how good he is at getting information out of me and putting up with me. I think my T likes the idea of me having meds (again?). He laughed and asked something on the order about if I will cooperate with this doctor's recommendations. Um, I don't know yet. T knows that I don't like the idea of taking psych meds. I know I need them, but I don't have to like it.

awwwww you have a great outlook on this inky

[kimmydawn]

i agree with ev ((((((((((((((((((((((inky)))))))))))))))))))))) outlook is alot too!

Good luck!

kd

[(JD)]

(((inky))) your life seems to me to always be "up in the air" I think you are doing a better job at it than I am! The 2 week interval can be tough, for sure! I wouldn't worry about the interim doctor, as his job will be to help maintain your emotional health where it is, until your regular doc gets back!

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Actually, the doctor I have the appointment with--his job will be to try and get me to take meds AND be cooperative with a treatment plan. I've never been much for patient compliance.

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I had words typed out and on-screen along with to mad faces and the little red one screaming $*@# from the pop-up screen. I'd said that I was actually not doing great tonight, *literally playing* with SI ideas. I really want to do more. This from my bank account being nearly depleted (if not yet by tonight), and my ex hasn't paid me my support check yet--LATE AGAIN!!! (MAD FACES!)

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((((((((Inky))))))))))))))))))))))))

[Quay]

Two wks is a long time. I'm impressed with your outlook. I loved the movie, what about bob.My T recommended it to me, although he tried to tell me he was not suggesting I was Bob.

As far as meds go, I hear you. I don't like taking meds either. I refused for quite a while. I finally agreed and 3 months later he and my pdoc wanted me to increase them. It was a battle again. It made a difference when I stopped and listened to what my T was saying. He pointed out that it didn't have to be forever. I was in charge of how long. I could try it for a week or 2 wks and decided if it made things better or worse. I realized that part of the reason I didn't want to take them was a feeling that they were being recommended because it was easier than listening to me. I realized I knew my T better than that. I know his priority is what's best for me, kind of took the wind out of my sails.

The obnoxious thing is that he was right. I'm doing better on them. I offered to let him say I-told-you-so, after I actually had 2 good days in a row. He just laughed, said he'd wait until I'd strung a whole week together.

Hope your appt goes well. Do stop to listen to what the pdoc has to say. Once in a great while they actually make some sense or have a good idea!

TC, Quay

[(JD)]

<font color="blue">(((inky)))) you know I do care about you and your situations... but you also know that UNTIL you take responsibility for your own healing, it won't matter what doctor you see. No doctor can make you do anything, really. Since you do have such a hard time with compliance, maybe this would be a good topic to begin to discuss with the fill-in T? There must be some little steps you can take to begin taking care of yourself on a consistent basis? Some one thing to begin with, that no matter what, YOU agree to yourself you will do or keep at???

[june]

Hello Inky,
I always find it dificult while my therapist is away. As a matter of fact, 2 months ago, he went away for 3 weeks. he gave me 2 months notice that he was going off on vacation and I was happy for him. However a week before he left I slumped into a major depression requiring some med changes. It never dawned on me but on his return he suggested that I had gone into a depression because of his absence. I was very embarassed by this however I think that he was right. We can become very depedant on our therapists for sure. I usually book appointments with my GP while my therapist is away. It helps some. I wish you well and encourage you to continue to express your feelings with us during his absence. Take care.