3 weeks without T

I had to leave town for 3 weeks and had my last session 9 days ago last Tues. T also had to leave town the same time as me but only for a little less than week. T tried to schedule an appointment w me after I got back, but I didn't know the exact day so she told me to call her when I got back. She said "If I don't hear from you, then you'Ll be hearing from me. That made me feel good, and I assured her I wld let her know when I came back. She also gave me the number of a sub T when she was away and said that after she came back I cld call her and she'd help get me back on track if I needed it.
Well on Sunday I called her and left her a vmail telling her when I'd be back and sating I'd like to continue meeting at our original time. Her vmail said that she was out of town and wouldn't be returning calls until the 20th (odd, b/c I'm pretty sure she told me shed be back on Wens or Thurs). Anyways, yesterday I emailed her just giving her a basic update on myself and just some things I thought wld be helpful. I also told her not to email me back (I just didn't think it was necessary and I don't want to get too attached.)
Anyways now I'm getting nervous that she hasn't called back to confirm our appt. I kind of want to call her number again and listen to her vmail just to see if she said she's not answering calls on the 20th or if she won't be back until Wednesday, which is what I thought she originally said.
Ugh, idk even why I'm saying all this, b/c I hate obsessing like this and it makes me aware of how dependent I've become (this is my first time in t). What do you all think?

I used to call my ex-T's vm alot, just listening to it gave me some comfort, although honestly, it was never enough. My current T and I text alot, and that has been extremely helpful, even if it still feels a little odd to me.

So I say call her vm as much as you need to. And the attachment stuff is hard, and it takes a long, long time to work through. Like you, I tried fighting it, denying it, resisting it, but with my current T I'm starting to accept it, and it's making all the difference.

Good luck

Thanks! I called her vm yesterday and confirmed that it did say she wld be back the 20th, which makes me feel a lot better. I am anxiously waiting for when she calls back to confirm our appt. for when I get back, but at least I know she is still on vacay (altho I could have sworn she told me shed be back on Wens, oh well). And yeah the attachment stuff is super hard, I hate it!