[Overcastbutclearing]

Just wanted to vent...I am angry with my T right now.
She is making me promise something I don't want to promise. (not a safety issue)
Anyway, I made the promise because I have to adhere to her instructions when she feels like I am trying to sabotage my therapy or something good in my life.
But, I am mad. And, I just wanted to say it!!!!!!!!
ARRGGG!

[complic8d]

Yes, I understand. I don't like making promises because then I have to keep them and it scares me. If I don't I couldn't live with myself. That's why I won't make any solid promises even to safety issues, that way I can't break them. Good luck with you anger (I suppose you could discuss that at the next appt?) Hugs!

[(JD)]

OK. Sorry about this. I'm glad you are trying to work with the T, and hope even this issue can be worked through soon for you. Be sure your T knows how angry you are about it. Are you sure you should be angry at the T and not the situation or disorder that causes some of these situations? Your T is your confidant, your hire, your consultant... kind of goes with Don't kill the messenger? TC ((((hugs))))

Hey, Suz!

Listen to your T and do as she says! She knows what´s best for you! I know, she might not say the things that you want to hear... but it´s probably better for you in the long run to do as she says... You can do this! I know you can, Suz!

Thinking of you!
Nina

[Overcastbutclearing]

I am still piping mad.
This blows.
Makes me feel like she doesn't trust me or think I am strong.
I left her a message saying I was very angry w/ her for not believing in me. No response yet.
So, I sit and wait and hold to my promise.

[DaveyJones]

So, what you're telling us is that you're wanting to sabotage some of the good things in your life?

DJ

[Overcastbutclearing]

Yeah, as any good borderline would do.
You see, you start to unravel the hurts, and you began to feel better, and you know what your T is telling you to do is the right thing and all....BUT...You still get angry and you still wantto prove you are worthless.
Welcome to my life Davey!

[DaveyJones]

Now, see--I accept my own worthlessness as an article of faith, I have nothing to prove! Of course, I was raised to be a good Lutheran too, so what do you expect?

Anyway, now my T and I mainly talk about politics. She's a Republican, and I haven't tried to strangle her yet! Maybe this therapy stuff DOES work.

It's nice to be here, ((((SusanJane)))).

DJ

[Maven]

What I'm not clear on is, how did she MAKE you promise something you didn't want to promise? Did she put a gun to your head? If you don't want to promise something, even if it's in your best interest, then don't, but don't say she made you do it. You had a choice.

[Lexicon78]

I've been where you are. I know it is very upsetting and I know that we don't like everything. Do you think she has your best interest at heart? I know you're going through a lot right now. Please just hang in there.