[delicatefade26]

Okay so today has been really tough-I've found out that I have a lot of medical bills due like now and I of course don't have the money...so my parents paid for my last therapy session-but I found out today that one of my prescriptions is going to be 50 bucks-so I told them that instead of paying for T they could pay for that...she said they might be able to pay for both-but I don't feel right taking money for T when it will cause stress for them...so I said don't worry about it-I will cancel T...so I just emailed him and said I won't be able to make it this week...and when I hit send my heart sank and I feel sooo down now...gah-this sucks-okay sorry for the rambling-its just so tough right now and I'm just not sure about anything right now I want to just lay in bed and cry-I hate this

[delicatefade26]

How do I delete this thread? I tried under the editing but it won't work

[skysblue]

Originally Posted by delicatefade26

How do I delete this thread? I tried under the editing but it won't work

Maybe you could edit your post by deleting all the words - the thread would still be there I think.

also, contact administrators to completely delete it. Sorry you want to remove it because you're sharing some honest feelings that need validation.

[delicatefade26]

Sorry you want to remove it because you're sharing some honest feelings that need validation. [/QUOTE]

Thank you for the hug and validation

[skysblue]

I would feel terrible too if my therapy had to end suddenly. That is a blow and can wound deeply. Maybe you could set up less frequent meetings to that you don't feel so abandoned.

[delicatefade26]

So my T finally got back to me-and I find myself disappointed in his response (I am very aware this is irrational) but he just said "sounds good. If that changes let me know and we can meet at lunchtime at my other office" then said otherwise we could just look to next week...I don't know what I was wanting really...but I'm upset by this response...even though he is willing to meet with me at lunchtime and was super nice about it...I'm so confused and hurting right now : ( maybe I should borrow money from my parents to see him this week...

[unaluna]

I understand how you feel, although maybe it's not the same, but when you haven't been given what you needed, it's hard to give yourself what you need. I will mess myself up financially, my mother says for somebody so smart how can you be so stupid (reason #xyz I can't talk to her, not saying she's wrong, just not HELPFUL). If you can possibly swing it (financially, but more importantly, emotionally), it would be better to see T and talk about this, mine have always been more understanding and helpful than I ever thought anyone would be. best wishes.

[delicatefade26]

Originally Posted by hankster

If you can possibly swing it (financially, but more importantly, emotionally), it would be better to see T and talk about this, mine have always been more understanding and helpful than I ever thought anyone would be. best wishes.

I'm driving myself crazy with this back and forth-push and pull I feel towards this T stuff...I think I need to not run-borrow money-and see him...thank u!!

[skysblue]

Originally Posted by delicatefade26

( maybe I should borrow money from my parents to see him this week...

Yeah, what will be the most painful - borrowing the money or missing T? Maybe you should go ahead and borrow the money.

[crazycanbegood]

This is my guess. Your T probably feels bad that your in a tight spot right and wish he could help you. BUT he must maintain those pesky boundaries and paying for sessions is one of those. T cares. Most Ts cares. Blame it on the boundaries.

[delicatefade26]

Originally Posted by crazycanbegood

This is my guess. Your T probably feels bad that your in a tight spot right and wish he could help you. BUT he must maintain those pesky boundaries and paying for sessions is one of those. T cares. Most Ts cares. Blame it on the boundaries.

Yeah I know-he already gives me a discount b/c I'm a student...I know he cares-I mean he is willing to see me on his lunch hour...which is great but also makes me want to run so far away and fast!!! but I just emailed him back and told him my mom is going to take care of the money and that I really need a session this week...so we shall see what he says!

[BonnieJean]

I feel sad that you'r heart hurts and that you're going thru this struggle. I vote for borrowing the money and seeing your T. Let us know what you decide.