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Many of you here awhile know I saw a buffoon for about four weeks and felt like crapola when I realized he was a dismissive, phony jerk and a crappy therapist as noted in his health watch rating I saw after the fact. I am SO thankful I did not allow that idiot to use my insurance.

Anyway,I eventually found a Pdoc I liked but still wanted to go private pay until I felt reassured. Now Pdoc raised the fee so I had to go on insurance or quit after over ten sessions at quite a cost in time, emotional energy, and $$. When I originally asked T if my insurance was accepted T said yes so I figured all I would have is a copay or 20% of the fee to pay. After two weeks of asking about my copay I go in last week and ask again. The answer I got was the billing is outsourced to a management company (scary!). I told him I could not afford a large back pay, especially after costly car & home repairs in the last 3 months. He said not to worry and he or the lady at the management company would call and let me know before this week's session. He then looked it up again and he is out of network. Why would he not have told me that to start with when I asked? How could he not know?

That was last week and I still have not heard anything ab. whether I will have to quit which would suk since I never wanted T on my insurance record in the first place. If I cannot afford the difference in coverage then I will have to quit and will have it on my record for no reason. I am TICKED!!! I tried to get an answer from my insurance co. but they said they need the code Pdoc uses to tell me the amount covered/allowed. I will have to cancel this week if I do not get an answer. I now seriously feel like Pdoc is untrustworthy and I've been duped by another poor excuse for a human being. I feel so let down and less confident in Pdoc.

Munching on disgusting candy corn m&ms I am SO MAD!!

[dismissed feelings]

Now I've gone from mad, to scared, to sad, to depressed, to sobbing. I dk why but I feel duped. Trust is a big issue for me (I trust no one!) so maybe that is why but I just feel awful and like such a fool for beginning to trust T and that T knows what they are doing. I am terrified it has all been a waste and I will be worse off going forward. You guys may see this as a seemingly minor annoyance but I am really upset. I know if this second attempt at T does not work out I will never try again and will just feel like an even bigger fool for hoping it would be of any benefit.

Sorry for the whining....

[lastyearisblank]

That's terrible. No wonder you are feeling that way! Money is definitely not the most important part of therapy but if that whole arrangement is not in place then it makes it impossible for any trust to develop. Just want to send you a hug ((((dismissed feelings))))

P.s. Lol at the candy corn!!!! They sure are disgusting though they hit the spot sometimes

[dismissed feelings]

Thanks LYIB! Well, I've gone back to worried and mad again. I do not like to cry so I wind up getting angry. Candy corn can be icky but these m&ms are worse! They have a skittles tasting candy coating and are filled with off tasting white chocolate. The crunch was quite pleasing, though.

Originally Posted by lastyearisblank

That's terrible. No wonder you are feeling that way! Money is definitely not the most important part of therapy but if that whole arrangement is not in place then it makes it impossible for any trust to develop. Just want to send you a hug ((((dismissed feelings))))

P.s. Lol at the candy corn!!!! They sure are disgusting though they hit the spot sometimes