Don't know how to find a t

I'm 24, single mom. Been dating a wonderful man for 2 years. My life has been hectic to say the least. I have done so well for myself up until this point and am proud to say so. I've been in and out of therapy for 11 years and lately have been trying to deal on my own. I don't know any more...

I'm doing rather well I think, but I still do suffer from my mood swings. Not to mention my audio and visual hallucinations have come back. But I am now aware of the difference and am fully understanding that these things are not real. I don't want meds.

I think I need someone to talk to. I don't know why. I mean my life has been pretty intense over the last 2 years, a few life changing events. But I've been strong through it all and have had a great support system over the last 2 years. But I can't shake this feeling. I feel like I need a t. I don't know why, I'm not depressed, I'm not suicidal or SI, nor do I have a ED any longer. But I need to see a therapist for some reason, my mind just keeps telling me so.

I don't know how to tell my boyfriend (who knows the things I was dx'd with but doesn't believe them since he met me 2 years ago and I've seemed rather normal to him. He blows off the little things, as do I.

I don't know how to tell him without him thinking it's about him. I also don't know how to find a therapist in general since first I don't have a car, second I don't have insurance or a doctor, third I don't have money to pay a therapist since I'm a single mom only making 8 an hour. Any advice or help would be appreciated...

I just need to talk... I don't know why but it seems like I need it pretty intensely since I'm on PC 24/7 feeling the need to talk. But I can't find the source of the issues that need to be discussed, if that makes sense. I feel like there is something that I need fixed, I need to talk about and figure out with a t, just don't know what that is. Maybe it has to do with my DID, maybe not?! Any advice again would be appreciated!

If you live near a university, sometimes their med school or psych department offer clinics or even ask for volunteers for trials to be therapized in some way. Some of the trials even pay you.

Would it be possible to see the T that you saw before??

If you live in the states, every county has a mental health clinic. The cost of therapy is based on a sliding fee scale. If you're a mom with children, the cost to you will be relatively low. The difficulty is that you'd have to get your own transportion to the clinic and if you don't live in the "county seat", you might have to travel some distance. In some BIG counties, the mental health clinic will have small satellite clinics in the surrounding communities. Check out the phone book or on line for the phone number. Good luck!

First many hugs.

IMO I think we heal in stages. While you have gone through allot and sound better in many ways the fact that you feel unsettled inside and want to go to therapy means you are looking for the next chapter of self work (IMO). I have gone through this after taking a break from therapy before etc.....

I have a friend who to is a single mom and has nothing extra to pay for therapy (she was in therapy before). She did find a therapist that would take her on probono so perhaps if the local mental health clinic doesn't work out perhaps you could find a therapist that would take you as a probono ?

Keep us posted .

Try this link to at least see who is in your area: http://locator.apa.org/

With your disorder, you do need someone who is expert in trauma. (((hug)))