[vanessaG]

I'm sorry hvnt been on here too much past week or so. This depression keeps comin n going and now it's back full on.

I have my t-doc appt tomm. I think I'm just gonna tell him I quit. I think he's frustrated cause I keep sinking back in depression.
My ins can only cover so long so it has to end eventually right?! It's not helping (I don't think anything can) so I'm ust gonna come out and tell him tomm.

He'll probably be relieved.

I just really can't do this anymore....

[DelusionsDaily]

What will you do if you dont keep fighting? Just hang in there its tough when it comes and goes like that. i went theough that earlier this year and they ended up having to change meds. It is not easy I know but for me if I dont keep fighting I just sink even deeper and that was worse than fighting. Switch Pdocs if have to but dont give up.

I'm so sorry your depression has been so bad. Please don't give up. There are highs and lows, and you're in a low spot. It will pass - it always does. I hope you can let your T help you tomorrow. Sending hugs & good thoughts your way.

[vanessaG]

Ya the depression is lifting for 3 days then it goes back down.
Yesterday I laid in bed ALL day and ate 3 ritz crackers. And that's how it's been.

I think my tdoc is getting annoyed. Like I should be making progress already. I don't think he understands, idk but sometimes I do.

I feel like I'm too difficult for him and I'm just waiting for him to refer me out. I actually can't believe he hasn't already. He said last week 'oh I think ur getting better!'. Um no, that's only cause I was having some up days.

My pdoc. I c in 2 wks. I called a diff 1, they don't take ins and want $380 for initial exam!
I guess I could call other ones or maybe I should make er appt with pdoc.

I don't know. I'm just laying in this damn bed crying. I can't even shower...my tdoc will appreciate that tomm...

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by vanessaG

I'm sorry hvnt been on here too much past week or so. This depression keeps comin n going and now it's back full on.

I have my t-doc appt tomm. I think I'm just gonna tell him I quit. I think he's frustrated cause I keep sinking back in depression.
My ins can only cover so long so it has to end eventually right?! It's not helping (I don't think anything can) so I'm ust gonna come out and tell him tomm.

He'll probably be relieved.

I just really can't do this anymore....

The worst thing about depression is trying to live without hope.

And it must be awful to need a treatment you can't afford. That can't be good for your self-esteem.