Pdoc Frustration

Okay so my T has been suggesting that I see a pdoc for a while-I was apprehensive about it-but now I'm starting to just get past that and see that I really need this...it's importatnt for my mental health to be on the right medication...sooo the one that he wanted me to go to-he had tried calling to get a favor (he used to work there) but they never called him back...so I decided to call and see how long it would take for me to get an apointment without him getting me in-and there is a waiting list of at least 75 people-which could take forever to get though-I could be looking at 6 months without an appointment...it's ridiculuos! So I called another center-and their main Dr. isnt' taking new patients, they have another real doc but they cost $250 first initial session (I just can't afford that right now) and they have a nurse practiioner that would cost $165 for initial-but I just really don't want to go to a nurse practioner...I really wanted to go to the guy my T knows and trust...but it looks like that is just not going to happen...so I'm so over this...and I'm pretty sure I'm done pursuing this...I'll be fine without it...I'm just super frustrated and annoyed and hurt...and I wrote T an email telling him that I was done pursuing it...it's just too much right now-that I dont need on top of everything else....blahh this sucks : (

I hope you rethink giving up completely on the Pdoc thing. It is difficult when one finally starts to concede on an issue, in your case seeing a Pdoc, and it feels like road blocks are going up at every turn. I know it is frustrating but your T has obviously given good reasons for you to consider seeing a pdoc. I can only encourage to keep looking. It is obviously something you bagan to agree would be beneficial...Dont give up.