[lostmyway21]

So I have therapy tomorrow morning, and today i made a request to my T...

When I was little kid I only have one memory of my mom and dad together. I was about three years old, and we were at a park. My father was holding me, on his shoulders and my mother was walking behind pushing the stroller. We got to a bridge, (there was a lake) and we all stopped. My father took me down off his shoulders and held me upside down over the water. I remember the lake felt like it was an ocean. I was scared to death. I thought for sure he was going to drop me into the water. I remember my mom screaming in the background for him to stop. Then after that it all goes blank. That is the ONLY memory I have of my family as a complete unit.

As it ends up now, my T office is only a few minutes away from that park. I asked him to go for a walk with me to where that memory is. Andddd he said, yes we can. Now I'm really nervous. I used to get really overwhelmed going back to that bridge in the park, so I stopped going back. I think we are going to go tomorrow, and I could definitly use some pocket riders for this adventure.

[rainbow8]

For sure I'm jumping in! Wow, you're brave to do this, and your T sounds really special to do it with you. What your father did sounds very traumatic. I do want to say, though, that fathers do that sort of thing with their kids. I was always afraid of the daring things my H did with our kids while I was praying in the background. They want to play rough and take chances. He probably didn't realize you'd be scared since he was holding you. I never wanted my kids to climb up the slide by themselves but my H let them. I hope it goes well for you tomorrow. You'll be SAFE with your T beside you!!

[FourRedheads]

I'm in.

[lostmyway21]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

For sure I'm jumping in! Wow, you're brave to do this, and your T sounds really special to do it with you. What your father did sounds very traumatic. I do want to say, though, that fathers do that sort of thing with their kids. I was always afraid of the daring things my H did with our kids while I was praying in the background. They want to play rough and take chances. He probably didn't realize you'd be scared since he was holding you. I never wanted my kids to climb up the slide by themselves but my H let them. I hope it goes well for you tomorrow. You'll be SAFE with your T beside you!!

It was mostly a hard place because it was the only memory I had of my family together. Good or bad it's all I had to go on my entire life.

[confused and dazed]

I'm jumping in!

[shoez]

Wow lostmyway! Im so proud of you that u asked for something you needed...big big supportive hugs for that my friend! Im so sorry that happened to you, that sounds like a really really scary memory, I will be right here in your pocket as you revisit that place...I hope that T will be able to be a support to you to help you heal from that memory..

*hides in pocket with cookies and safe hugs in an envelope* Im in! ...will be there with u for ur session

I'm in I think it's really brave that you asked to do this and I love that your T is willing to go there with you. It sounds like you have a really wonderful therapeutic relationship and I can't think of anyone else I'd want to revisit that place with if I were in your position.

[karebear1]

I think it's really brave of you to go back there as well! I'm in that pocket too!

[confuseduk]

I'll be there too. I hope going back with someone you trust will help, you've shown a lot of courage

[vanessaG]

I'm in! I hope your walk goes ok tomm! Will be thinking of u

[sittingatwatersedge]

count me in!

[granite1]

in in completely.

Me too! I'm in.

[FourRedheads]

Thinking of you this morning. I hope the walk helps you to find what you need.

[Chopin99]

I'm in!

I'm in also!

Just wondering how you're doing and hope your session went okay this morning.

[lostmyway21]

A more pressing issue presented itself at like 3am so we had to change our initial plans of going for a walk to deal with the problem. He did say we will do it soon though. Thanks for support though.

[FourRedheads]

I'm sorry to hear that. I hope everything is okay.

[lostmyway21]

So T and I finally ended up taking a walk up to the park where the bridge was today. It went really well. He only let me spend a few minutes on the bridge before we continued walking, and talking. I didn't get overwhelmed with emotions or have a panic attack because he was able to keep me in the present. He kept me totally safe, instead of let me getting lost in my thoughts. It was a good experience.