Straight and to the point

I started crying AGAIN today in my session. As I was reaching for a Kleenex, I asked my T why am I always crying in there. I reminded him that I never used to cry, but lately I end up crying in every session. His answer: You also used to come very close to killing yourself on a fairly regular basis. I prefer this route. (He's never been a man to mince words.)

He went on to say that I may not have cried much in the past, but I really needed to. The problem with people who hold all of it in is that it explodes in very unhealthy, and in my case, very dangerous ways. My crying now is a positive sign as I am more able to bring up the deeper issues and acknowledge what I have buried as a means of self-protection.

Then, as I had used talking about crying as a way to try to change the subject away from what was really the issue at hand, he went right back to the issue at hand anyway. Can't pull one over on him. He knows all my avoidance techniques. Gotta love him.

Sounds like you have a great T!

(((((Chris)))))) That is SOOOO awesome!!!
You have a very good T. And you are working the therapy process!
Yes, it is hard to feel all those emotions. And it is not easy to watch ourselves in therapy cry that way. But that is the right place for those tears to come forward and be heard.
Great work!!!!

your t sounds so much like the t i see...

weirdly scary....fact though,,, your in Texas, me in the pac nw

and the same with the crying. never used too, now i have and terrified it might happen again and this is after a decade of seeing him... not liking this at all

very glad to hear though that you are less suicidal because of the crying... he does hit a nerve there

I said this once before; but I always like reading about your T; he just seems to nail it each time that's a great comparison; crying compared to being suicidal I know which I prefer as well! and it's neat he sees through and gets past your avoidance techniques (even if it may not always feel so good at the time)

More tears tonight. We went to our son's choir concert and as soon as I heard kids singing, the tears came. I always cry at music concerts. So many memories from childhood. I really am tired of all this crying. It's one thing to cry in session, but it would be nice if it would at least confine itself to that hour.

I understand how you feel. Once the tears came - felt scared almost. Then I relaised that a lot of people in the genral population have same difficulty with crying and my crying actually was recieived most times with care and concern by others, as if people feel its ok finally to cry! Let's start a crying revolution

I think that you are doing such great work Chris!

I cry in therapy too. But every year my two granddaughters are in dance recitals. They are in a couple of different numbers, but when they come out and do their ballet, I can't hold back the tears. These are the same girls that fight with each one minute and want to sleep together the next,argue about which show to watch but share a blanket to wrap up in ten minutes late.
On stage they are the perfect little ballarinas. I am the proud nana but the tears just run down my face. I don't know why.

Well, I have just felt completely yuck today. I almost feel like I'm getting sick, but I don't think this is a physical issue. I'm feeling heavy and tired and ?not sure? how to describe it. Very uncomfortable though.

We just got home from a football game (we won again by the way). Even all the excitement of the game didn't distract me from how I'm feeling. That's not a good sign. Tomorrow we'll be at a marching contest, so hopefully that will be a distraction tomorrow. I see T Monday. I'd like to talk to him about this, but it's the weekend, it's not an emergency, it can wait.

I seem to cry every week in therapy now, it's getting quite embarrassing. But then I never really cried much with another T I had as I was so shut down. I think it's just what I need to do now, and I seem to feel safe enough with this T to let it out. Farmgirl it's a sign that you trust your T that all the emotion is coming out, and it's such a healing thing. I know it feels yucky at the time, but it's good to be able to cry!

Yes, I know. When I mentioned to T how I seem to cry in every session anymore, he said, "This is the designated place to cry." I know it is, but I really hate crying, alone or with someone else, it doesn't matter. I'll get over it.

I look forward to the time when I will be able to cry in sessions. Yes, I have cried from time to time, but I haven't cried near enough. For some reason, it always happens in the car on my way home from a session!

It's not that I try to necessarily stop myself from crying in sessions. I do FEEL like crying, but the tears just don't come. I am glad that you are able to release your tears.

Absolutely correct.

Even when I hated my T, however bad it got, her office was still a safe place to cry.

And I don't find it embarassing.

Ours would be a happier society if we could all cry more. Strange but true.

same here! I did cry a little last session, I have only been seeing this T for a few months.

It's ironic because normally I cry all the time over everything.

I've done that. It takes me a while to react to what's happened.

Look at it this way: you get all that extra quality crying time FOR FREE.

There's not much else you can do while you are driving. I call that good time management.