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I feel like getting drunk before therapy. I know, that is totally messed up. I need to go to therapy, but I just want to be numb and drift. Is it acting out? I am sure. Is it seeking attention? definitely. Is it to numb my feelings and deal with this mixed episode? Absolutely.
So why do I still plan on doing it? I am not sure what T will say, if she even notices. I am sure she will notice. She is very astute that way. I am sure I will get people telling me to not do it. I think I will anyways though. I guess I just wanted to tell somebody that I hurt. Hopefully, someday I will find a way to use my words instead of my behaviors/actions. I will be as strong as I can. I will try. I can't promise any more than that.
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If you have to drive to therapy, please don't drink. You will put others at risk.
This really is a BAD idea. If you aren't up to going to therapy, cancel. But don't self-medicate with alcohol. You mentioned a mixed episode. If you are BP, alcohol is only going to make the episode worse. Why are you in self-destruct mode? Rather than getting drunk, how about writing down some ideas about what you are feeling, or trying not to feel, and taking that with you to your appointment. |
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I went there, did that; it wasn't pretty. I think you will regret doing it more than you will get comfort or feel better for doing so. My T almost sent me home right away (I wasn't that drunk). I was rather ashamed of my behavior afterwards.
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Lauru-------------That's me, Bipolar and Watching TV ![]() ![]() I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. ---Robert Frost |
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