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Oct 18, 2011, 07:06 AM
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Last week in group T, I mentioned that when people address me, I immediately feel like a mouse trapped in a corner, scrambling. I told T yesterday that I was able to visualize the mouse as a small, young girl.
He guided me to imagine going into the corner (which was SO hard to do. My mind kept scrambling.).....and I felt that her body was so tense, like a suit of armor. Yet beneath that is a girl who just wants to be loved, held, cared for...and I HATE HER.....I hate that she wants something that she can't have..... T then told me that was enough and that he doesn't want me thinking about it anymore...that we'll come back to it.... It was mortifying to make eye contact with T after coming out of that....and I felt an intense wave of sadness come over me....and so so dizzy..... T said that I allowed my body to speak and not my brain....and that I opened up a gateway. He changed ths subject to small talk....Seems like I touched on something important, and it's scaring me.... 
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Oct 18, 2011, 07:30 AM
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That's how I coomunicate all my inner expereinces just like that. Its nothing to be scared off, its inside of you whether you talk about it not. The more you talk and T helps you put more words to those images they will begin to change and the hate turns to compassion and understanding. Cripes I talk about vast armys inside of me marching and fighting.
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Oct 18, 2011, 08:41 AM
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some emotional breakthroughs / revelations are indeed painful. painful thoughts are sometimes just as much in our muscles as in our minds. they resonate throughout our bodies - that's why some healing therapies focus on mind/body connections.
yes, sometimes new self knowledge is scary. but, it is also progress because you have verbalized and become aware of something new. see where this knowledge takes you. be patient. keep working on it. deal with the fear and pain as best as you can. they will eventually lessen. a new reality awaits . . . all the best to you! |
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Oct 18, 2011, 10:37 AM
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i hope you find a way to just be kinder to yourself, and let that inner child blossem...
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Oct 19, 2011, 07:18 PM
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Good work MUE. I'm sure that you will make progress on this.
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Oct 19, 2011, 07:36 PM
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wow. sounds like a really good step forward. be kind to you.
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Happiness cannot be found through great effort and willpower, but is already present, in open relaxation and letting go. Don't strain yourself, there is nothing to do or undo. Whatever momentarily arises in the body-mind Has no real importance at all, has little reality whatsoever. Don't believe in the reality of good and bad experiences; they are today's ephemeral weather, like rainbows in the sky. ~Venerable Lama Gendun Rinpoche~ 
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