Impasse

Well, today starts a week without T who is on vacation. Don't see him again until November. I am curious to see how I fare. I will have almost no one to speak with. I am sure that I will survive. Though, I am also sure that I will have my bad moments.

Career-wise, it appears I will have to make a full career change. No more paralegal work. There is too much stress and I cannot cope with it. Next week, I will probably register for a real estate course to help me make a change. I like dealing with residents in apartment buildings and will try to become a sales/leasing representative. I had a very good response to my concierge work yesterday in an apartment building and the manager asked if I was available to work more days. I have to keep trying, continue working hard and be open minded and optimistic (me?). Can't let the anxiety get to me too much. The work was at times greuling. I worked 8 hours straight with no break. I like working with the maintenance guys because there are no games. Everyone is straight-forward with each other. We work as a team, as it should be. It is such a relief to work with real people and to know where you honestly stand with your coworkers.

I went from so-called white collar (computers) to pink collar (nails), but really it was from logical, to artistic and physical work, a different side of me, but to which I brought my same thoroughness and attention to detail and problem-solving skills. Plus my dad had taught me how to scrub a floor and clean a baseboard...! Anyway, all good news! i'm happy for you!

Hey Guy, Oy Vay

Yes, you do sound a lot more positive. Since you have some people in your life that you can be straight forward with, that's wonderful!!!!

I hate game playing and politic poop that happens in the work place. I like you couldn't take the stress of a supposed easy job. Medical Records and Filing in a cancer center....

For me once the boss people (politicling) decided they didn't like me and I didn't fit in, they made it very difficult for me. It doesn't matter where you are - white collar, pink collar (love that term) bottom of the pecking order or on the top with huge responsibility. If you know you are not fitting in, you are isolated, stressed and for me at least, it turned to depression. I know I was forced out because my one true friend there told me that management told them to stop talking to me completely unless it had to do with a patient file.

I want to read the first draft of your first chapter. The time off from therapy is a great time for you to begin as a form your own therapy!!!

So happy you are here.

That happened to me! The silent treatment. Ostracism is cruel and brutal. There must be a special chapter on how to deal with folks like "us". My HR person got a nice promotion after she got rid of me. I like to call them up once in a while and tell them to keep working and paying "my" Social Security benefits - they get really mad! I'm like, well, excuuuuuse me! I didn't want to leave! I do have a LEEETLE TEENY TINY mean streak in me! Somewhere in all the confusion...

yeah, i hear you Beholden and Hankster! i did not fit in with my boss. she liked my knowledge but she did not like that i did not eat organic vegetables and raw foods, and she hated that i occasionally ate gene-modified food at mcdonald's. did i mention that such a health minded person smoked cigarettes like a fiend and got no exercise? talk about denial! she once shared that she did not eat dinner but would have a glass of wine at night. frankly, i thought her behavior was alcoholic.