[DelusionsDaily]

Wow! Yup I titled it that because I am second guessing this whole therapy thing. It is just starting to seem like more trouble than it is worth. We have been working on mindfulness in an effort to help me connect with my feeling. I have no idea that Im feeling at all much less what Im feeling. Part of me likes it that way except for when I dont see the depression until its so bad I end up in the hospital. I HATE FEELINGS!!!!!!!!!!!! Why do I have to feel??? It is just scary...I dont know how to feel...or wouldnt know what to do if I had I feeling!!!

Its toooooo much...I wanna quit. But I have to see a T to see the Pdoc I am seeing....

I dont know what to do????.......

[~Christina]

Hiya ~

Personally I think everyone at some point start second quessing therapy...

I have been seeing my current T since March,, the first few visits I really was testing the waters with him and seeing how he reacted etc .. I have had a couple therapist before him and I just felt it wasnt working. So I found a T thats works for me ,, Because ONE T does not fit all ...LOL

I see my T weekly and havent missed a single appointment.. that said there have been alot of times I really had to drag and kick myself in the *** to go ,, and every time I have pushed myself to go I always am grateful I went ...

For me I really feel like this is my last chance to really get better and come to terms with my having bipolar and how I can learn to cope better ..

For me this is going to a long journey.

Try to look at seeing the T and Pdoc as a safe place to be able to work thru the feelings you have... thats how I looked at it for a while and it was helpful

((((((Hugs))))))

[gashly]

The best thing is to talk to your therapist and pdoc about it, maybe they can help you figure out what's going on. I'm actually at that point now with mine. It's hard to know, I've had the experience where I've had a sudden breakthrough after thinking it wasn't working out, and had to stick it it out. I've also stayed in therapy when it wasn't a good fit. I think the answers come to you in time though.

[learning1]

i'm sorry Melissa. I think you did the right thing, posting about it on PC. Then people will encourage you to keep trying, and you will go and start to work it out, one way or another. Anyway, that's what happened with me. it is good to get support from other people when therapy just isn't going right for a while.

[Perna]

Feelings are hard-wired into us; depression isn't feeling "bad"/depressed, it's the result of trying not to deal with feelings as they arise that then backs up like a clogged drain and you end up with a mess instead of free-flowing pipes.

Originally Posted by Perna

Feelings are hard-wired into us; depression isn't feeling "bad"/depressed, it's the result of trying not to deal with feelings as they arise that then backs up like a clogged drain and you end up with a mess instead of free-flowing pipes.

Oh.

Ohhh... That makes so much sense to me. Wow.

[mcl6136]

wow is right. I have seldom seen a better analogy than that.

Made my day!